[Rowing Machine] +6.7

I gained 5.7 pounds since last week. How is that even possible?! It was probably stress, decreased exercise, overeating, and general malaise over the last few days. That regresses my progress at least a month or so and probably isn’t healthy. Fortunately, the weight’s dropped off a little since yesterday, so it probably won’t last too long. Just goes to show quickly this health thing can change. At least I’ve made good progress in some areas.

  • My Weekly Stats:
  • Wednesday Morning: 50 decent rows, with 10 strong rows in there to not just circulate my blood and muscles, but maybe reinvigorate my lifeblood?
  • Wednesday Evening: 50 good rows. Just went in and did them, no real friction, nothing really particularly memorable, but this was hours ago.
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  • Thursday Morning: 50 light rows. Overslept so I couldn’t write, but there’s always enough time for a 2 minute, 50 row set. Feeling better, too.
  • Thursday Evening: 50 strong rows. Not feeling great, but wanted to get in some good rows, partially to circulate the flu shot I just got.
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  • Friday Morning: 50 good rows. After hours of mental exercise, you don’t think about physical exercise; like carrying on a dialogue elsewhere.
  • Friday Evening: Time 5min. 144 rows at a solid pace. Paused at 144 to catch my breath and the buzzer went off. Things are looking up, too.
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  • Saturday: 50 rows. Wasn’t quite feeling it today. Debated between 50 rows and 5 minutes. Bathed, ate eggs, and now I could easily do 5.
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  • Headache, sick, concert.
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  • Monday Morning: 50 light rows. Actually the first 30 were my lightest in ages. Ramped up from 30 on, to about a medium light pace by 50.
  • Monday Evening: 50 light rows. Faster pace, but still not averaging even last week. Full on sick now, gained weight, hungrier, and lethargic.
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  • Tuesday Morning: 50 light rows. Good to get back to exercising. This malaise is still in place, so I just went slow to avoid angering it.
  • Tuesday Bonus: 50 moderate rows. Still feeling sluggish but better than earlier this week or this morning especially. I held a great pace.
  • Tuesday Evening: 107 rows, 3min 42sec. Great pace from 1 to 100, paused, and at 107 had to catch my breath. Feeling good! Sweat out that junk.
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  • Vitamins: 14 of 14
  • Weight: 254.2 pounds [was 258.0 yesterday]
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  • Last Week’s Goals:
    1. Just feeling better: Some progress, maybe
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  • This Week’s Goals:
    1. Feel even better: Weight, health, de-stress
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  • From Good to Better
    • I might be able to better identity when I’m stressed out now. Maybe a little quicker, maybe alleviate the stress a little more thoroughly. Or maybe as I encounter more stressful situations, they don’t phase me as much?
    • For example, figuring out work stuff is stressful, and might have been a majority of the cause for the stress of the last few weeks. I was able to get a game plan going sooner than in past years, and it’s not that bad.
    • I’m still upright, things are going alright, and even with uncertainty I’ll find what’s right. Compared to the past, as well, where I’d constantly fret about things, now it’s just act when you can, and unplug the rest of the time.
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  • Sober Living
    • Last week was a trying time. This week is better. Though there are plenty of meeting areas in the wide area, none are really local or convenient in the sense of going to a convenience store to pick up some groceries.
    • So I’ve been opening up more than normal with my friends and acquaintances. I was really stressed out a few weeks ago, too, but that stress hadn’t really manifested in quite the same psychological distress.
    • That stress was more aggression. This stress is more depression. One is feeling secure and actively trying to regain control. The other is rooted in insecurity while trying to find any control of the situation.
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  • Confronting Cortisol Circumstances
    • Waking up this morning was actually the closest I felt to throwing up in a while, and, I hadn’t wrapped up yesterday’s post Avoid Being Marked. So between dizzy spells and disorientation, I pressed through, then went back to bed.
    • Getting everything sorted for Sunday was stressful. Woke up with a headache and still had to write Detective Peaceknife’s Case. I got everything done with barely enough time to spare, so good on that front.
    • Pushing through today was also stressful because of that sickness feeling, though fortunately in some regards, it’s been less stressful because things are falling into place almost too conveniently.
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  • Disengaging from Stress
    • Adjusting my writing schedule has been helpful. Basically during the week, I’ll write quick stuff that doesn’t require much time, and on the weekends I’ll go for fiction material which takes more time to conceptualize.
    • I’m trying to introduce more media to consume as a way to forget about the stresses of the world around me, like playing videogames, watching anime, and reading books. Carving out that time seems to be the big challenge.
    • I’m also trying to learn to not take everything so seriously and to just roll with some punches. Part of that might be just taking in the criticism and then working on it the next time you face the situation rather than let it consume you. Maybe?
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  • Photo
    • This photo took some time to conceptualize. After finding my coffee container with the “heavy” sticker I got from one gig, it all came together quickly.

My big goal is to write. My important goal is to write “The Story.” My proudest moment is the most recent time I overcame a fear, which should have been today. I’m a better zombie than I was yesterday. Let’s strive to be better everyday. (Avatar)