“Don’t burn out again on binging.” My ideal days are spent holed up at home. I might row or clean, otherwise, I’m the most content at my computer the whole day. Years ago, I’d indulge a little throughout the day, and find myself numb by the end of the day, having accomplished nothing. In this first of an occasional series, written during those days, let’s dig into this in more detail. Hi, I’m an addict.
It starts small. I’ve been eating more and exercising less. I started including a second scoop of peanut butter in my oatmeal, so now I have a one scoop limit. I’m planning to row for longer sets again. I’ve been ordering the healthier items on menus, and now intend to be more picky with removing the unhealthier bits; I didn’t eat the mayo-drenched shredded lettuce and bun on a fish sandwich this evening, for example.
I gained 5.7 pounds since last week. How is that even possible?! It was probably stress, decreased exercise, overeating, and general malaise over the last few days. That regresses my progress at least a month or so and probably isn’t healthy. Fortunately, the weight’s dropped off a little since yesterday, so it probably won’t last too long. Just goes to show quickly this health thing can change. At least I’ve made good progress in some areas.
You constantly face adversity when you exercise. Adversaries include: feeling like it, not giving your best effort, and exercising itself. Exercising hurts, even with properly stretching and practicing good form. Yet when my rowing machine teaches me figurative exercises in overcoming physical and mental adversities, in a controlled environment where I can stop exercising whenever it becomes too overwhelming, I can use these exercises to break free from old molds that don’t fit me anymore.
Weight is the easiest fitness goal to measure. Saying, “I’ve burned off a solid 20 pounds since March,” feels good and inspires others. Disengaging from stressful situations is harder to measure. Plowing through those cortisol circumstances, where I might subconsciously need to overeat/overindulge as a coping mechanism, and instead funneling that negative energy into exercise or rewarding myself with positive activities for doing my best. Maybe there is a way to measure that? At least casually?
“Find inspiration in your work” because there are plethoric excuses for skipping exercise and most have validity. Fitness is perhaps the truest forms of work ethic. You can’t accidentally become fit. You can be born into money; you can’t be born into fitness. Earning wellness daily includes continual inspiration. When I see muscles develop, notice my increased agility, or when others ask me for fitness advice, that’s my inspiration to keep finding time to exercise!
Repetitious consistency is boring. Rowing is repetitious, and unless you’re in the mindset to constantly reproduce consistent results with each row, it’s also boring. So is taking vitamins, eating healthy, reading books, meditation, resting, and doing things that don’t have immediate results. Since I’ve shifted most of my mindset toward delaying gratification over the past year, as I keep the same consistent “1-2-3 pace” in everything I do, I can eventually achieve the “98-99-100 results” I crave.
I’ve had trouble for years with consistent exercise. My record was exercising daily for 48 days, then 16, before something would block my progress and I’d revert to my sedentary lifestyle for months. Thanks to this weekly column, I’ve kept exercising almost daily since March. A few days off aren’t too bad when I’m otherwise trying to exercise at least three times a day with “51” of the most intense rows I can give to the rowing machine.
I’ve burned off 20 pounds since March and I feel 100% better. I’m able to do more, I feel less tired afterward, and as a direct result: my wardrobe has changed. I’d already switched over to white dress shirts months ago. Cleaning house this weekend sealed it: through maintaining my dietary, physical, and emotional discipline, I hopefully won’t return to XL polo shirts. I have once before. Maybe it’s just a matter of consistency, accountability, and maintenance?