My-Today, I had the worst headache I’ve had in what feels like years. I can barely focus on much and I will have trouble writing because I have trouble concentrating. This 500-word daily writing goal seems so far off for me right now. I will do the best I can and part of that involves closing my eyes and writing without spell checking, because that’s the accurate depiction of my life as I expected it.
My-Today was my second float tank session in over two years. After the first, I did a live-writing session where I wrote my thoughts for a little under one hour, recorded the whole time, and I felt that was a great way to talk through my thoughts while floating. This is not a rigorous medical case study, but rather a subjective “trip report,” that being said, there is medical research being done for float tanks.
One major thing I’m learning as I traject myself toward writing “The Story” that I failed to learn until I wrote Novel 01 is pacing. Most people are lazy in life, and overcoming that bad practice does require discipline, self-respect, and a willingness to sacrifice many things. However, I won’t sacrifice much more than I have to write Novel 02. I’ve done enough writing work to where I’ll be good to write when I’m ready. Recreationally, however…
Last week, I did a rudimentary search for volunteer opportunities and found something that seemed interesting in an altruistic perspective that I could appreciate. I applied and today we had a 15-minute phone call about the position. I said that I am looking to volunteer to practice my skills after having been disabled for two years and in exchange I’m willing to help with whatever efforts might be open. This could be a good exchange.
My idea to exercise twice-daily unless I don’t feel well enough to do so or am doing other activities, like getting groceries, is turning out well. The primary purpose is to build up my endurance again so I can start doing more things, and I think that’s working quite well. I do feel more sore overall than I have before I started rowing, so I have to make sure I rest enough, but it’s helping.
I never thought I would be able to write this sentence: “I rowed twice today.” Not just mild, mediocre, measured sets either. I rowed about as good as I could have ever rowed in 2019 or 2020. I stopped rowing as frequently in late 2019 when I had headaches, then got back to rowing just before covid, and now, I’m back to rowing. I’m limiting myself to 3-minute sets twice daily – and with many allowances to skip sets.
I needed to explore deeper bits of myself to figure out why I was having trouble completing my resume, and it turns out that it was just the physical stress of not having exercised for a while. I rowed my hardest set in years – March 2020 was my last good set – and set out to work on my resume and other areas of my life that have been disrupted through the universal experience of career instability.
I’ve mostly completed sorting through all of my books. The only business left to tend to there is to file away all of the books I want to sell, by removing them from my book list, and then putting them in the “sell” pile. While I find the interest to do that, because it’s kind of tedious to go through all of them, I’ve now begun sorting through my CD collection, focusing on keeping and donating.
I just finished my first week of work in over two years and despite feeling rather sore from a rigorous exploration of physical and mental work, I feel like I’m back in the swing of things. I picked a contract that was fairly physically intense, but, mentally not that intense. There are naturally context bits that I don’t want to explain publicly, at least until the contract is over, because of privacy and need-to-know information.
My-Today, I did my first float tank session since August 2020, days before my surgery. I stopped going because my physicality wasn’t great. I went today because my-tomorrow I start my first day of work in over two years. I went in with two questions. First, where did I stack up physically against where I was two or three years ago? The second was a question that I revealed this morning when I made a mistake.