[Applied Self-Confidence] Bettering Better Zombie, 03

After years of wallowing in self-pity, I realized something: I would only place my value in only one side of myself. I focused only on my career, playing videogames, or watching movies exclusively. That’s the fastest way to burn out! What happens when your career hits a rough patch? No good videogames? Watch some bad movies? My self-confidence, motivation, and overall demeanor would go in the dumps.

Each of these represent a side of myself:


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Each day of the week now has a particular theme:

  • Sundays: Updates to “The Story.” This gives me the most time to dedicate to my most important project.
  • Mondays: Casual practice short stories.
  • Tuesdays: Random topics. Reviews, rants, or anything else.
  • Wednesdays: My week’s physical fitness with some mental fitness as well.
  • Thursdays: Home office rebuild, applying technical concepts.
  • Fridays: Me publically telling myself how I can become more confident.
  • Saturdays: Sober Saturdays. This is the result of sucking out life’s poison.

This structure is deliberate.

Let’s say I hurt my leg. That’s going to affect my rowing abilities! If I were just a rower only, then I’d be screwed! I’d be depressed, feeling terrible, and hate myself. I could now reroute that negative energy in my writings about self-confidence and sobriety. They both tie together intimately. When you’re strung out, feeling like shit… is that because you had a bad day after work or realized you’d just pissed off some close friends with your inebriation?

Themes might be sprinkled across multiple days.

Let’s say I heard some tragic news. If I was already planning to write about self-confidence from the perspective of not latching onto one particular thing, I could vividly think about the event while writing about self-confidence. That pain I’m feeling can, rather than rot inside me, be bled out into words. I can either use those emotions to heighten what I’m writing about or to address them directly.

You don’t have to let one thing define you.

You don’t have to look at your life and think you’re a failure just because you didn’t achieve something. You don’t have to think that your life is over because you can’t do something. You may feel trapped in that corner. You might feel like you’ve run out of options. You might think that no one is willing to help you.

We’re here for you.

Not just me as the writer, but your friends, your family, your acquaintances, and the random people you meet in your daily journeys are available. We may not always have the time to dig in deep, but we do have a minute to offer an idea or a smile. Sometimes, a way out.

For me, that was through realizing that I have so much to offer.

I dug in so deep into myself that I found over seven sides of myself that I absolutely must tell the world. These are important to me.

You can find that in yourself, too!

My big goal is to write. My important goal is to write "The Story." My proudest moment is the most recent time I overcame a fear, which should have been today. I'm a better zombie than I was yesterday. Let's strive to be better everyday. (Avatar)