Every short story or essay I publish here gets added to the “Betzom,” or, a comprehensive calendar that helps me summarize the past – 13 weeks, 92 publications, and over 46,000 words – into a singular idea that I can digest before moving on. We shouldn’t hold onto our past mistakes or achievements. Everything is a stepping stone toward something better. Rather than consider specific passages, let’s broadly consider how three months of effort can lead to improvement on change.
Acceptance of change is that singular idea.
Back in early July, I was still holding onto things that could prevent me from progressing. When you have processes that have been working for the past two years, you tend to keep them up, even if it means you’ll end up spending unnecessary time on things that just don’t matter. I used to spend too much time on the visual element of Better Zombie. The pictures aren’t meant to be the focus; merely like spices that should be added to the main dish after it’s fully-cooked.
The images were a constant roadblock.
Instead of focusing on the writing content, I’d spend minutes or even more considering the visual element of a short story or how to arrange John and Trishna in my lightbox to best convey the essay’s intent. This time can lead to brainstorming, but overall, was just a waste of time. I may end up blasting through more content, but that’s alright because rather than spending two hours on an essay per publication, I can spend thirty minutes and then focus on additional priorities…
…Moving… learning programming… and expanding the content…
It’s easy to let our minds wander on how we can make something the best it possibly can. That’s what I like about having a 500-word minimum for writing each day. I can’t focus on the nuance of this sentence. I don’t have the time! Sure, I could have combined the last two sentences, but sometimes, you’ve just gotta let it go. I’ve been getting pretty good about that with the written portions of my essays, but the visuals were actively impairing my publication progress.
The quality won’t go down significantly, though, don’t worry.
I’m also becoming less attached to the idea of high-concept literature. If I can convey a singular idea and explore the depths of its content, that should be enough. I don’t need to write anything definitive. I can always return to the material in six months or two years and write another attempt at it. No one besides me is judging the level of quality I can attain, and to paraphrase what I told a self-critical friend of mine, it’s OK to accept positive feedback from other people.
Writing is many things for me. Fun, cathartic, and necessary.
This morning, I wrote an email that should hopefully help my career. If not, then at least it helped me practice persuasive writing and helped air out some bad vibrations.
Find what skills enable, rather than disable, your encouragement toward better self-progression.
|Sources: My writing experiences.|
|Related: Other “Betzom” essays.|
|Picture: Just the calendar. I usually have an outro picture, but I don’t have the time this go-around for a shot of my Trello. It’s… less compact?|
|Written On: September 22nd [1 hour]|
|Last Edited: September 23rd [5 minutes]|