[Applied Self-Confidence] Letting Things Go

I think we start new projects, ventures, and adventures because there’s a rush of excitement over the unknown. As we dredge through the details, we begin realizing how much of a mistake that was, but the trick is figuring out if that was truly a mistake or just something that we must endure. If it was a bad idea type mistake, let that thing go, but if it’s just inconvenient, don’t let that passion go!

I started a business on June 18th, 2016.

This idea was to do computer repair on the side, build up a small business, and maybe eventually do something with it. My angle was that because I’m fairly decent at troubleshooting, why not do it outside of the conventions of a normal paycheck? Well, after a few months of juggling my salaried work, this work, and realizing my writing ambitions, I had to let go of this dream. Not because I barely made any money – all properly taxed, above board – but for something more.

I wasn’t passionate about this business.

I woke up at 3AM this morning, with less than four hours of sleep, to write and edit. When my health is in good order, I can do this all day, and it’s more entertaining than playing any videogame or doing any other hobby. After I realized this writing passion, I shifted my priorities, first minimally out of embarrassment, before I stopped putting in time/effort into the business only a few months later. It took me years to formally close the business because of that embarrassment.

Why? The audacity to try is better than the embarrassment of failure.

Through actually legitimately throwing effort into that business, I started a discipline and self-respect that carried over from small business owner to writer. For small businesses, you earn money based on your effort. When you work for a larger corporation, you get sick day pay, vacation pay, and spoiled. Writing is the same, which is why I write every day. I may not get a chance to edit daily, but it’s still an output and pace that enables me to throw out the occasional weak draft.

This business venture taught me the value of letting go.

If some idea catches your fancy enough for you to spend time and money on developing it, only for you to figure out that it’s not what you wanted, get out as soon as you can. Don’t let pride keep you in it. Don’t be afraid to kill the dream, close the business, or scrap the draft. There are plenty of instances where you can salvage the work for later, but this is specifically when you know in your heart of hearts that it’s just not gonna work. Don’t try to shoehorn it in.

Keep the positive memories, scrap the rest.

Now that I’m moving out of the house I built that business in, it’s been nice reflecting on that attempt.

If only so I can move on from that experiment in business.


Quotes: None.
Sources: My business experiences.
Inspirations: I’d kept the domain expiration email unread in my inbox for a while. I wanted to write about it broadly like this, and finally had the itch to write this under the guise of learning self-confidence. Though vague, I think it worked.
Related: None
Above: An excerpt of the email.
Below: The business’s base of operation.
Written On: July 28th [30 minutes]
Last Edited: July 28th [0 minutes]

My big goal is writing. My most important goal is writing "The Story." All other goals should work toward that central goal. My proudest moment is the most recent time I overcame some fear, which should have been today. I'm a better zombie than I was yesterday. I'm not better than you and you're not better than me. Let's strive to be better every day.