In one of these boxes could be an item or two I collected from Black Friday events. I remember one childhood year being woken up at the painful hours of maybe 6am to visit a supermarket to collect something or another. The exact object isn’t in my memory, but I remember receiving an object. I could have donated this object already because for me I always associated Black Friday sales with discomforting events like that.
My difference between a good doctor and a bad doctor the answer this question: Do they seem like they want to help? Throughout this journey I’ve experienced and shared with you all, I’ve encountered many doctors that actively or passively express disinterest in assisting me. While being legally required to assist, they don’t make me feel like they want to do anything other than blocking any questions to shuttle me away to the next patient.
I don’t always have great timing when writing holiday-themed essays. I noticed that it was the whole Thanksgiving and Sales weekend so I figured, why not write a two-parter? I’ll use a majority of the morning publication slots to cover the remainder of my Downsizing Zeal project. I’ll intersperse other topics I might feel like writing, but this is my priority, since completing this project will help me achieve both my short-term and long-term goals.
Turns out that a post-surgery wound, specifically for my spine surgery, shouldn’t drain serum for five weeks. My retiring spine doctor was surprised. He wrote this prescription for a 10-day supply of Sulfamethoxazole and Trimethoprim. I brought the prescription to my pharmacy, they read this note, and said, “sure, we have this. It’ll be ready in a spell. Give it 20.” It’s a curious thing to consider how something like some serum ooze could be normalized.
Although meeting with my spine doctor yesterday, two weeks before he retires, didn’t seemly resolve my hurting tailbone issue, it did introduce a logical solution. I predicted this. He’s retiring and didn’t study my medical records because he was merely assessing my current condition and advising before retiring. He recommended that I talk to my pain management doctor and if my spine had problems… unfortunately… the old spine doctor. It’s been exhausting working through this.
My tailbone hurt so much that it took about two hours for me to go to bed. I was too tired to get up and I’d already taken a painkiller earlier. Suffering through that pain was useful since I can better quantify how much of an impact on my life this post-surgery tailbone pain causes. I wasn’t alone in my suffering. My downstairs neighbor has been sick in bed probably, coughing intermittently, for days now.
Before I started Better Zombie, one of my aspirations was running a technical support repair business. I knew someone that was successful at this and for a majority of what I wanted to do, I could scrape by enough pocket change to where I could almost believe I could do it – especially if I cared. I closed that business, but some of the aspirations are there, especially with my four computers waiting in deep storage…
It’s been five weeks since my spine surgery. I didn’t write about my healing process as a weekly update for the first few weeks because I was writing about the process daily. If there’s any change from Week 4 to Week 5, it’s that now I’m starting to feel a restoration of my physicality on a general scale. There are still many specifics that don’t feel right. My tailbone constantly hurts. But other things are recovering nicely.
I had spine surgery five weeks ago, and though I’m still in the healing process, I have been somewhat productive, at least in terms of casually meandering through media. I’ve been watching friend-of-the-website NamedGhost stream a Breath of the Wild-style game, Genshin Impact, while reading Bullshit Jobs or other media. It’s nice having something like a livestream going on in the background even if I’m not watching it entirely [sorry]. It’s the impact of motivation.
I still have to remind myself near-daily that I have to work within my means. As I approach my fifth week since having spine surgery, I am finally starting to feel “normal,” if you will, which my current normal is not feeling nearly incapacitated due to physical constraints. I’m not at the point where I could feasibly run errands – I can barely walk them – so it’s a challenge for me to take life somewhat easier.