Since starting Better Zombie, I’ve been coming to terms with my social anxiety by doing things to get out there more. It’s like exposure therapy. If I try to talk to people all at once, it can be overwhelming. If I pop into random people’s livestreams when I’m feeling social and we strike up a conversation, it becomes comfortable and easier going forward. I valiantly stepped outside my comfort zone on a few occasions today.
I don’t play ENDLESS WAR to kill other players without proper reason. My interests are primarily the Discord game’s culture and secondarily its meditative !mine mechanic. I had some easy opportunities and even some provocations. Still, it’s too aggravating for most killed players. You spend significant time building up your character, only to be killed and looted? As an absurdist, I can appreciate the effort toward nothing. Let’s talk about killing players, regrets, and conduct.
I was asked recently about my long-term plans within the company by my supervisor. I’m in a stressful, high turn-over role where people often get promoted into other roles. I said I was going to be staying put for right now to focus on my health. I’d rather advance myself than advance my career within any company, just because my role within the company can change suddenly, but my own resilience should be less fickle.
One month into taking the high blood pressure beta-blocker Propranolol, I’m finally seeing the long-term benefits. I’ve always felt anxious. It’s not that those feelings have gone away like when I’ve taken benzodiazepines. It’s just the biggest spikes have calmed down. Unlike the anti-depressants I’ve taken that have given me severe depression, here, I’m just not controlled by the largest spikes of anxiety or depression that always used to inhibit my thoughts toward progressing forward.
I think, secretly, we worry too much about what we think others think of us. What if we accepted ourselves for ourselves, what we look like, and our flaws? This would undermine many organizations – materialism, pharmaceuticals, fashion – and help us feel better. What if you like wearing a shirt that has a hole in it and no one cared about that hole? You wouldn’t need to buy a new shirt. Why not try that lifestyle?
What’s the best gift you can give someone? Something that captures the essence of your relationship in a single object, experience, or meal? Shouldn’t it be a hand-made object that conveys a certain degree of effort and time, which fully expresses the value they’ve brought to your life? Anything else would be rude, right? Considering how often the gifts we give or even receive become common or discarded, shouldn’t we find gifts with more meaning?
To open one door, you must usually close another door. We often want to cheat the system and keep both doors open as long as possible, maybe because we can’t fully accept choosing one path, but what does that accomplish but ensure we can’t pass through either door? John and Trishna conclude their week-long vacation visiting family in Sindia before starting the College Arc of “The Story” not wanting to pass through those “farewell” doors.
I get the most anxious when I strive to achieve something but have no room for intolerable failure. It’s fine when there’s an acceptable tolerance for failure; things just break. However, when it seems like there is no tolerance for failure, that’s when my pulse weakens and my senses overextend. John [left] and Trishna [right] will face plenty of anxieties in “The Story,” but how they handle certain conflicts will be interesting and perhaps helpful.
Spoilers?: Minor (minor character musings)
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Rather than adapt, the natural tendency when we encounter adversity is to retreat. Why? It makes sense if we’re exhausted. Having driven through adversity to achieve something impossible, it’s certainly wise to rest. In “The Story,” John [left] and Trishna [right] won’t get an easy pass. They’ll have to thrive in a world of strife, just like we all do. Let’s explore how driving our vehicles might help them, and us, learn some adversity tolerance.
Spoilers?: Minor (psychological character studies)
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Just as I learn from my mistakes, I also learn from the mistakes of others. It’s not for petty reasons. It’s not to make myself look better than someone else. Rather: this person messed up in a way any reasonable person might act. Let me learn how they failed so …I don’t fail, too! I would like to think “The Story” main characters John [left] and Trishna [right] act similarly. But wouldn’t that be boring?
Spoilers?: Minor (character motivations, world-building)
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