I have many items around the apartment-mansion I want to sell, more to get rid of than to turn a profit on, yet there will be weeks at a time where I won’t post anything to sell. The biggest reason for that is just the lack of motivation toward getting out there, being social, and experiencing new situations. The question becomes, then, how many more weeks can I afford not posting anything new to sell?
I like the idea of exploring everything and everywhere I can. There will be some experiences I cannot have, but the more experiences, even if incomplete or partially-understood, can help explain the contexts of other experiences. For games like Jill of the Jungle, they show a sort of discipline for acquiring a new skill then returning back to practice that skill out in a new area, whether it’s platforming or clearing out your writing backlog…
There’s a certain satisfaction in achieving better in life. You have some situation that’s good enough, but maybe something is terrible about it. Work, money, people, life, or anything, really. When that better thing hits you, you can tell: yes! Part of it, for me, is when I remember that I earned it through all my hardships. The other part is the person I was five years ago couldn’t have achieved this, and that’s OK!
I think, secretly, we worry too much about what we think others think of us. What if we accepted ourselves for ourselves, what we look like, and our flaws? This would undermine many organizations – materialism, pharmaceuticals, fashion – and help us feel better. What if you like wearing a shirt that has a hole in it and no one cared about that hole? You wouldn’t need to buy a new shirt. Why not try that lifestyle?
I started the decade working at some gig and I plan to end this decade either at a concert or at home. Regardless of where my decade ends, I’ll be in a much better place than the previous, if only because I’m more fully self-actualized. It isn’t all positive, and it wasn’t all progressive, but the regressive elements have just added character and helped me endure life more than I could have ten years ago.
Late last year, I mused over what goals I wanted to achieve in 2019. Now that it’s approaching 2020, how did I do? My New Year’s Resolution was “removing more burdens from my life,” which, I achieved. I’ll use the same resolution, “removing more [external] burdens from my life,” since it efficiently summarizes what I want out of my life. After reviewing my favorite media, I’ll write about my goals and how I plan to achieve them.
An important part of life is swimming upstream toward what you want. If you only want to play videogames, without conflict, and not doing a whole lot more than that, then you’ll need to establish the structure to do so unimpeded. If there’s a videogame you want to play but you have to do some chore like yardwork or home improvement, that’s not really an ideal lifestyle for you. Swimming toward that isn’t easy, however.
I might read my 50-cent copy of Dune someday, but I’ll certainly rewatch Jodorowsky’s Dune first. Science fiction doesn’t do much for me. Analyzing scientific statistics against a starry backdrop doesn’t excite me. What human element does that story convey where I will have become a better person for experiencing it? I don’t have ten-thousand years to live. I’ve gotta make this whole life thing count. This novel’s purpose might contain elements of that drive.
There’s a scene I’ll never forget in EarthBound where you have to push through a crowd of people to get somewhere. Some let you go peacefully; others fight you. This scene happens often in life. If you want to use the restroom at a crowded concert, you’ll have to figure out how to navigate crowds. This is the same for doing anything in life. Just stand there and wallow in your discomforts or push through!
While reading 101 Habits of Highly Successful Screenwriters, hurtling myself toward 1,000 essays published over the past 3+ years on Better Zombie, I’ve thought about how much of those “habits” are things you learn as you write. This website started as an experiment. Maybe something to do occasionally. It just kept gaining momentum. Not in terms of monetary compensation. Other than one essay netting me a $40 voucher, I haven’t made a cent here, and I’m happy about that.