It’s easy for me to say that getting any degree of popularity is blowing up my expectations for the amount of effort I’ve put into writing, but really, I’m just navigating the platforms that people are using on my own terms. When I livestream, I’m using the platform to help me write “The Story.” I can use my experiences in writing “Novel 01” to show people how I’ll write “Novel 02.” Achieving my writing goals is possible…
This was going to be more of a physical therapy essay – talking about how I’ve made some progress during my five visits so far, but this progress has been minor, subjective, and not immediately measurable – but I’m exhausted. My physical therapist is good. I feel like after striking out with all of the bad luck I’ve experienced over this entire period, finally, there’s someone that’s willing and able to help – even if it hurts significantly.
What’s the meaning of life? Well, isn’t that a tricky thought to consider, but, when we consider our thoughts on what life means to us, and when we compare our lives to others, particularly when we’re dealing with difficult things, sometimes we have some answers. Eventually writing “The Story,” where “Novel 01” and “Novel 02” are but small fragments of that greater whole, is my “meaning” and it propels me through the darkness of failed American Dreamers.
Spoilers?: Minor [meandering through life]
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Until I designed my mind-palace in the physical space of a Minecraft map, and thinking about my intentions with the Discords I maintain related to “The Story” and other hobbies, I didn’t know how I wanted to develop these servers. After writing “Novel 01,” I realized that before I started doing any major projects in the future, I needed to recruit editors, researchers, readers, sympathizers, and even guests. This Discord should now help with that goal.
The nice thing about building out set-pieces that will appear in “The Story,” as I’ve mentioned in other essays, is that it’s helped me externalize the sort of internal thoughts that wrack my brain. When I’m feeling bad, as I was earlier today, I can jump into Minecraft and do something productive. As easy as it is to complain about life or to do things to escape reality, addressing reality forthrightly helps for me often.
Spoilers?: Minor [exploring my mind]
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After filling the [first] restroom of Zeal – the fourth-wall-breaking area of my Minecraft map that serves as part of a whole braindump area for my thoughts related to “The Story” – I immediately thought of changes. Having the restroom stalls “open” presented ethical problems to me. While I built and refined various rooms, I talked about how “Novel 01” taught me aspects of myself, from writing to this map, which should help me write “Novel 02” and more.
Spoilers?: Minor [refining set-piece logistics]
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I’ve been focusing my previous few Minecraft sessions, including this one, on Zeal – the-fourth-wall-breaking area that dual-purpose serves to introduce new viewers to my plans with “The Story” and serve as the background for “Novella 01.5.” That novella will be the transition between how I wrote “Novel 01” and how I’ll write “Novel 02” and beyond, which may be livestreamed, recorded, or at least, using Minecraft and other social media platforms to try to gather up interested readers.
I did this recording offline because I needed to work through thoughts in my mind. My health is getting worse and it seems like no matter what I try, nothing seems to help. When I yell into the void for help, to help me write “The Story” or regain my health, it’s silence. I used what energy I had today to build on “Novel 01” and “Novel 02” ideas, and I thought the result looked like this:
What happens when I feel terrible because my spine is actively trying to destroy me, but my mind is still capable of thinking about things? Well, I can’t do anything much, but I can do some of the menial background tasks that can help me tell “The Story” easier. For my livestreaming background image, I included the book cover of “Novel 01” and did other things to better advertise “Novel 02” when I’m able to write it.
Spoilers?: Minor [planning through pain]
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In this 20th recording of building set-pieces for “The Story,” I had a healthy audience in my livestreamed session. It was fun taking a variety of questions from people in the chat – I save the logs, and have debated how I want to publish them, because posting them along with the video might make sense, but I’m not sure. I referenced my writing “Novel 01” and explained how these set-pieces would help when I write “Novel 02.”