[Novel 02] Blowing Up Expectations

It’s easy for me to say that getting any degree of popularity is blowing up my expectations for the amount of effort I’ve put into writing, but really, I’m just navigating the platforms that people are using on my own terms. When I livestream, I’m using the platform to help me write “The Story.” I can use my experiences in writing “Novel 01” to show people how I’ll write “Novel 02.” Achieving my writing goals is possible…

Spoilers?: Minor [blowing up thoughts]

My thoughts throughout this livestream were rather scattered.

I’ve been under much more physical pain than normal and dealing with the psychological impact of people that are bullying me around for my healthcare put me into a weird headspace even before dealing with a significant amount of time troubleshooting audio issues, but, chaos and I figured out the audio problems related to OBS that were preventing him from being a co-host, so this is a new element that I’ll be introducing soon.

I completed quite a bit in the Minecraft map.

After working a little bit in the Visitor’s Area yesterday, I thought about how that space could benefit from having an all-purpose hand-washing, treat, and pet-naming station. I was inspired by the dog park section of Marymoor Park which had a bulletin board for various dog-related services. I still need to work on taking screenshots of all the pets that have found their way into this Visitor’s Area, but, the eventual idea is that anyone that has a real or fake pet in this area could refer to that spreadsheet to see a screenshot of their pet, as a way to acknowledge their contributions.

The Visitor’s Area has narrative value for the novella.

In the walkthrough of Zeal, the fourth-wall-breaking area where Sammohini will be transported to in her dreams for an interview about “Novel 01” and more, she’ll feel kind of awkward and weird – as anyone would that’s transported to Zeal – before seeing the many dogs, cats, birds, and other animals in the Visitor’s Area. She would be greeted by Zealie, sure, but she sits at the entryway to Zeal. The myriad pets, though, would act as a way to calm her nerves is a sense since she would be calmed by the many pets that would enjoy seeing her, especially in exchange for treats.

By livestreaming this building process, I can rehearse this thought process often.

It might feel weird for people, which is why I’ve spent plenty of time thinking about the “lurking” mentality that is an undercurrent of the Twitch retro community. Everyone says it’s not a big deal but everyone makes a big deal out of it. I’ve spent many hours of the past few livestreams talking about my thoughts and perspective on this. I could condense it down to three different examples.

Shouting out someone like BARF_FACE_9000 is easy.

BARF is a cool dude that livestreams playing videogames and some other artistic things.

My thoughts on BARF, as with others, is fairly consistent. To gather information related to lurking requires assessing the situation from multiple angles. There are myriad more points involved with that, since you have to consider the pros and cons of “lurking” or passive participation versus active participation. The controversy only exists on Twitch, I think, because people might want the audience to participate more. While I like people throwing in ideas and hanging out, I’d rather they feel comfortable, and if that’s hanging out in the background without saying a word, then I’d rather they do that.

The third sort of example is debating about the politics of current events.

These require analysis of many more perspectives that are often controversial. One could be a conservative and disbelieve anything a liberal says. Who is right or wrong? Politics exists in a zone where there is nothing really constructive to be had from discussing it. Talking about the politics of current events won’t help you become a better person. The most it will do, typically, is make you feel bad. There are things that I could say target me as a “current events conversationalist” like leaving the message that Black Lives Matter well past the moment where people might have been most talking about it, but that idea hasn’t gone away now, and it’s still an important thing for me to convey along with the voice I have to the audience I may have reading this.

I think the recognition of the BLM movement helps to make lives better.

I don’t believe debating the nuances of certain political ideologies helps people. I’ve seen it harm far more people as they get stuck in negative headspaces. Sure, I use these livestreams to address negative situations in my life, but I use the livestream as a way to navigate through those experiences. If I can state a problem clearly, then I can come up with some solutions. I would also invite people to do the same. I don’t invite hatred, however, and I have yet to encounter that. I’m sure that I will soon, since I’ve been growing more of an audience, and eventually, there will be someone that stops by to try to ruin the fun.

I’ll report them as I do when I’m a watcher, whether passive or active participant.

I’ll conclude this essay with a thought related to the diorama. Now that I have some varied terrain with the diorama, and Surf’s End next to Los Lake, the diorama that shows the City of Eville feels much more real. To add a bit of randomness to the diorama, I used an excessive amount of TNT to explode a valley into the city, which, not surprisingly, blew up far more than I expected. Still, though, that was a fun way to shake things up a little, and, it helped me shape the environment up. I’ll need to polish this area going forward, but for now, it’s a nice change of geography.

Writing these essays and building this map is mentally grounding.

Quotes: None.
Sources: The Story’s Imaginarium.
Inspirations: Writing about the livestream after doing it is great.
Related: Essays helping buildNovel 02.” This novel is formally called “A Story About Self-Confidence: Something About Anxiety,” and is a sequel to “Novel 01,” which is part of the Sammohini Arc of “The Story.”
Screenshot: Outro shot
Written On: 2021 January 16 [11:18pm to 11:4444444pm]
Last Edited: 2021 January 16 [First draft; final draft for the Internet.]
My big goal is writing. My most important goal is writing "The Story." All other goals should work toward that central goal. My proudest moment is the most recent time I overcame some fear, which should have been today. I'm a better zombie than I was yesterday. I'm not better than you and you're not better than me. Let's strive to be better every day.