And now I must wait for the two or so weeks before I get an expert opinion to decide how my case will go. I received a generic message going over all of the information just now. It’s all fairly straightforward, so instead, I’ll paste in my response below and write about my feelings, because it’s been tough these past few days, especially. I’ve lost a lot of strength. I have no appetite. Motivation: decreasing…
I ended up making five entries to the leaderboard contest in ENDLESS WAR. I drew one so quickly that I had actually forgotten I submitted it, even though it received plenty of positive reaction. I missed it during the livestream, so when I watched it later, although there were parts I wish I would have commented on, overall, I’m happy enough that it got a good reaction because I’m learning to follow my amusements more.
In ENDLESS WAR, when you join a team, Killer or Rowdy, you have a communicator channel to strategize where you’re going to do this or that. When you abstain from those as a Ghost/Staydead, well, we still have a communicator channel, but ours is called The Losers Club. For a contest about the leaderboard, I imagined it as a breakroom one might have in an office where those of us who’ve abstained instead hang out.
We tend to think of the arts as disparate industries because their results are different. When I write essays, I use words. When I draw, I use colorful pixels on a screen. The same could be said for any industry – programming, music, or even mathematics – but once you can think about what you want to have happen in your media of choice, it’s a matter of spending the time plotting the way to get there.
In ENDLESS WAR, the highest honor is winning a princep, an item that you can have custom-made for your use. It gives you status buffs and never leaves your inventory. You win a princep by contributing a winning contest entry. I accidentally won five times. I’ve been through some difficult times recently, so I want to remember these good vibes. I want to capture, as best I can, my feelings while watching the livestream results.
After playing enough of Star Fetchers and enough of Lovecraft’s fiction to feel confident about my opinions on both, I think my thoughts on media comes down to their priorities. Do they prioritize radical environments where things are ultraviolent and gnarly? Or, I suppose the opposite end of that rule-of-cool would be characters becoming cool? For me, the setting, environment, and even characters themselves are secondary to development. That’s what I’m building for “The Story.”
Spoilers?: Minor [being versus becoming]
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I didn’t recognize the number that called about a half-hour ago, but I’ve been trying to answer the phone when I’m awake and not in significant pain, even if it’s a scam call, or even when it is. It was my manager. After I sent in my long-term disability email, I hadn’t heard a reply back, so I figured, well, shit, my ship’s come in, I’m being called to be told I’m let go. Worse.
I don’t like the idea of saying a character has this particular personality trait or that way of thinking. For me, that feels overly-simplistic. Sure, we can make those assumptions, but it takes seeing how people and characters act and react to situations that help us determine their character. This only marginally relates to “The Story,” but I came up with an idea to figure out your character’s/characters’s personality/personalities: An elevator pitch, if you will.
Spoilers?: Minor [a what-if scenario]
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It’s been rough for me to deal with all the loops I have to jump through to get my health sorted out when my health is in such disrepair. I would imagine there must be some sort of sadism involved because if it’s not one thing, it’s another, and if it’s not one battle to fight, it’s another. I barely have the energy to hold a small box without my spine hurting for hours after.
I like how media can present simplified versions of our complex reality. Even the most complex, morally-questionable media offer suggestions for how to live our lives or meditations on life. When life gets overwhelmingly complex, I find it easier to hide away into media, but recognizing why is more important, because if I can channel that stress energy away from escapist media, then when I meander through that media later, it will be more enjoyable.