[Rowing Machine] 2018: Week 36 {230.5}

The anxiety shot through my back and up the left side of my neck like I’d tweaked a vital vertebra. My heart rate increased. Thoughts narrowed. Not this again! Why? It’s a feeling you never want, but once you’ve experienced it, it’s easy to reign the control back. That near-panic attack is just like overexerting yourself in rigorous physical fitness: the more you push yourself through your hardships, the more you can handle other hardships.

My Daily Stats

Monday 27th
Row #1: 5 minutes, 30 SPM [strokes/rows per minute], 2:33min/500m [it took me 2:33 minutes to row 500 digital meters], 874 meters, 143 rows. I love it when I wake up refreshed before my alarms. I was able to get some good editing done, and other than a little sickness, I’m feeling fine. Actually, that wasn’t a great cough; hopefully work won’t take too much out of me. At least this rowing set felt good.
Row #2: 5 minutes, 37 SPM, 2:22min/500m, 1019 meters. The heat returns and I didn’t miss it a bit. At least it’s dry enough to make these sets more sweaty? More related to rowing, these sets have been easier, in that it’s easier for me to pull good numbers and I am bouncing back quicker. Just wish I’d get more rest…
Wii Fit: 2 minutes [Triangle]
Push-ups: 1 (full), 7 (at-knee)
Jogs: 0 seconds (stationary), multiple short sprints
Bonus: 2 hours of walking, 4-8 hours of walking around the office
Sleep: 5 hours; woke up 30 minutes early, without my alarm

Tuesday 28th
Row #1: 5 minutes, 26 SPM, 2:16min/500m, 972 meters, 146 rows. Went at my normal evening pace until 60, slowed down, then went for [the] full catch and full release motions. It feels weird because it’s too exaggerated and doesn’t go with an easy flow, but that’s how you grow, now just on a rowing machine, but in life. No shortcuts.
Row #2: 5 minutes, 44 SPM, 1:52min/500m, 1111 meters, 197 rows. I could be stronger, faster, more productive, and could have made 200 rows. Rather: I am strong, fast, productive, and have made 200 rows during other sets. Maybe it was my form? Why care? Downtalk isn’t the route to self-improvement. Keeping up the good fight is.
Wii Fit: 0 minutes
Push-ups: 1 (full), 7 (at-knee)
Jogs: 0 seconds (stationary), multiple short sprints
Bonus: 2 hours of walking, 4-8 hours of walking around the office
Sleep: 6 hours; felt tired and unmotivated

Wednesday 29th
Row #1: 5 minutes, 26 SPM, 2:12min/500m, 890 meters, 116 rows. I went the full range of motion, slow, deliberate, and exploring my inner tensions, I found I was most tense related to [that whole robocall spam thing]. [Companies aren’t about customer service. They’re all about mitigating avoiding high-visibility customer complaints. Everything else is disregarded]
Row #2: 5 minutes, 34.5 SPM, 2:12min/500m, 981 meters, 173?/174? rows…? When I can hop on the #rower and just have a clean set, no thoughts or brainstorming, that’s really nice. No stresses creeping in. Just good form at a good pace for a light period of time.
Wii Fit: 0 minutes
Push-ups: 1 (full), 7 (at-knee)
Jogs: 0 seconds (stationary), multiple short sprints
Bonus: 2 hours of walking, 4-8 hours of walking around the office
Sleep: 5 hours; acceptable condition

Thursday 30th
Row #1: 4:53 minutes, 32 SPM, 2:50min/500m, 844 meters, 150 rows. As great a machine the rower is for getting around 80% or so of your major muscle groups exercised, it doesn’t help with those deeper sore spots that might linger in your back, neck, or arms. But it can help you notice those sore spots without causing them to hurt.
Row #2: 5 minutes, 36.5 SPM, 2:45min/500m, 836 meters, 170-some rows. Sometimes I just count my strokes out of habit, or maybe pacing? It’s been a crazy week, so, as soon as I was done I was ready to wrap it up and… still not go to sleep early.
Wii Fit: 4 minutes [Triangle, Half Moon]
Push-ups: 1 (full), 7 (at-knee)
Jogs: 0 seconds (stationary), multiple short sprints
Bonus: 2 hours of walking, 4-8 hours of walking around the office
Sleep: 5 hours; felt terrible all day

Friday 31st
Row #1: 5 minutes, 32.5 SPM, 2:59min/500m, 810 meters, 146 rows. Last night, my right leg, left half of my spine, and right arm oscillated pain sensors in that sort of mildly inconvenient way. It’s not as bad now but I certainly would like that to decrease today and over the weekend.
Row #2: 5 minutes, 32.5 SPM, 3:05min/500m, 801 meters, 165 rows. I was too tired to want to row. I put in a really good set until I go to 150, my mind hit this wall, my body was tired, I stopped momentarily, then kept going. Just like in life. When it hits hard, you rest, and pick it up again!
Wii Fit: 0 minutes
Push-ups: 1 (full), 7 (at-knee)
Jogs: 0 seconds (stationary), multiple short sprints
Bonus: 1 hour of walking, 4-8 hours of walking around the office
Sleep: 5 hours; slept in, sore, feeling terrible

Saturday 1st
Row #1: 5 minutes, 38 SPM, 1:57min/500m, 1108 meters, 172 rows. Late set, but I enjoy running through hours of mental exercise first before going through physical exercises. There’s a certain focus you gain when you’ve dumped and refined all your thoughts. Might be overanalysis, but once I’ve thoroughly analyzed something: go!!
Row #2: 5 minutes, 38 SPM, 2min/500m, 1146 meters, 181 rows. I went light until 35~ strokes in when I realized how lazy I was being, straightened my feet and knees, then went to town! Felt good. When you have good form, everything just works better. When you don’t, things hurt or break down faster. I forget that constantly.
Wii Fit: 0 minutes
Push-ups: 1 (full), 7 (at-knee)
Jogs: 0 seconds (stationary), 0 seconds (in motion)
Bonus: No additional exercise.
Sleep: 8 hours; slept in, but felt better

Sunday 2nd
Row #1: 4:50 minutes, 34.5 SPM, 2:02min/500m, 970 meters, 150 rows. I’ll have to remember to hold my big toes flat again the foot boards. That’ll help me keep good form, which will help me row stronger and faster. Except, not too strong or fast, like this set, because I don’t want to burn out too fast. I should remember my pacing.
Row #2: No rowing set.
Wii Fit: 0 minutes
Push-ups: 1 (full), 7 (at-knee)
Jogs: 0 seconds (stationary), 0 seconds (in motion)
Bonus: 9 hours of presenting Keyboard Kommander and all that entails.
Sleep: 7 hours; slept in, could have used more sleep

Stats And Stuff

230.5 pounds: down 1.5 pounds from 232.0 pounds

(Note: My goal is 1 gallon of water per day. One liter is 0.26417 gallons.)
Monday: 7.8 liters (2.1 gallons) of water, 1.85 liters of coffee
Tuesday: 6.8 liters (1.8 gallons) of water, 1.85 liters of coffee
Wednesday: 6.3 liters (1.7 gallons) of water, 1.85 liters of coffee
Thursday: 5.9 liters (1.6 gallons) of water, 1.5 liters of coffee, 11 oz orange juice
Friday: 4.8 liters (1.3 gallons) of water, 1.675 liters of coffee, 0.35 l orange juice, 1 can of Izze Sparkling Juice
Saturday: 3.8 liters (1.0 gallons) of water, 1.5 liters of coffee
Sunday: 7.0 liters (1.8 gallons) of water, 1.5 liters of coffee, 1 bottle of Strawberry Soylent

Vitamins13 of 14
(I take: Multivitamin; Calcium, Magnesium, Zinc; Fish Oil; Vitamin C; Vitamin D; and Vitamin E.)
– This week has been so full of stress from all angles that I’m not surprised I forgot to take my vitamins Thursday evening. This isn’t really self-deprecating or self-disrespectful. I can critique myself and my actions because through doing so I can figure out ways to guarantee my vitamin intake.

Rowing Machine Maintenance
– Check bolts: yes
– Clean seat: yes
– Lube chain: no

Aspiring Toward Goals

Last Week’s Goals:
Weight [230.5 pounds]: [succeeded] Stressful week but I managed to hang in there well enough. I’m glad this contract is ending soon. It’s been too stressful for me to manage long-term. Hopefully the next one will be closer. As much as I enjoy working in Seattle, it’s such a pain to commute to nowadays.
Consistency: [succeeded] For me, consistency isn’t hitting the high marks 100% of the time. It’s about trying your best every day. Daily word counts, daily exercises, and, daily progress. Even if it’s not 500 words, absolutely everything, or, progress was minimal, was it better than the day before? If so, there’s a win there.
Health: [failed] How I survived this week is beyond me, but perhaps it’s a testament to my determination to do what I must. It’s not so much that I respect this job. It’s that I need to do what I can with what I have to the best of my ability, always.

This Week’s Goals:
Weight: No weight gain. I think the trick will be identifying anxious moments and solving them with action, calm, or exercise rather than food. If I’m feeling hungry and anxious, then it’s not food I need. If I’m feeling hungry and lightheaded, then it’s almost certainly time for a small snack.
Consistency: Now I just need to work on consistently finding respites. This morning is what I should avoid: 3 AM: alarms go off, sleep in. 3:30 AM: drag myself out of bed. 4 AM: start writing, slowly. 4:30 AM: want to play Keyboard Kommander, downloaded it, but can’t; gotta catch up on writing. Am I going too hard on the writing? Maybe. I don’t see any other way out of this misery that punctuates my life. I can only tolerate these almost-wasted days doing gigs that treat me like garbage, mentally and physically, for so long until I change careers, I guess… hopefully?
Health: I’m not sure how to carve out those short respite moments, or as I’m writing this, recover from a lurking cold. Runny noses, soreness, and general lack of motivation do mean I’m pushing into the red. How can I push it back into the green? Slam it into rest mode?

Future Fitness Plans
I’m going to keep on chugging away at the push-ups, doing Wii Fit exercises when I can, and try to schedule my sleep more regularly. I’m not sure why it keep slipping away from me. It should be easier to track when I should sleep and when I should eat…

Random Fitness Topics

From Good to Better
I am writing this through the sickest I’ve felt in a long time. My focus is off, I feel like throwing up, my bowels aren’t happy, with this persistent ugliness that is dragging me down. With my years of self-discipline and exercise/endurance, I feel like I can pull through…

Sober Living
If there’s anything I’ve learned over these past five years, it’s how closely hopelessness is tied to anger. When all systems are firing, even if there’s a knock or two, I’m doing really well. Maybe for most people, when there’s an “engine issue,” they have better tools to treat it?

Moving Zeal
Not as much progress as I’d like, but I don’t have hours of free time to spend clearing out stuff each day when that time is already dedicated to writing or sleeping; I just do what I can with what I’ve got. I’ve made decent progress in clearing out junk.

Confronting Cortisol Circumstances
Multiple stress demons from multiple angles this week, same resolution: direct confrontation. Except for one, but that’s just because I don’t care enough. But for the others, which seems like more than the usual one or even zero, it’s just been eye contact and bravely addressing the stress. Nothing better!

Decompressing Disquietudes, Dude
Not that much. It’s been really hectic. No time for anime or videogames, just rolling with the punches. There is a small amount of lingering anxiety that reminds me of that oppressive panic attack from a few years ago. More so now than ever. Where’s the relief? This isn’t enjoyable…

Wii Fit Highlights
My back’s been hurting again. The last time it hurt was over six years ago when I fell on my rowing machine – I rowed back for the release, accidentally jumped, the seat went forward, landed on the bar, and it hurt for six+ months. Good thing Wii Fit stretches work.

A Nice Outro
I’m placing this format on hold until mid-October, switching to easier-to-write essays instead. This is a major time sink in its current iteration and I have to reprioritize some of this time in other areas for the next few weeks. Expect a full return to form! Maybe even new features?

Quotes: None.
Sources: My fitness experiences.
Inspirations: The introductory topic was one I’d had in the topics queue for a while.
Related: Past weekly column entries.
Above: This meant to represent a spine with the ROW logo fluttering in such a way to imply that it’s the pain running up the back.
Below: No out-take shot.
Wii Fit Stats: Weight and BMI
Written On: August 28th [30 minutes], August 31st [1 hour], September 3rd [30 minutes]
Last Edited: September 3rd
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