[Rowing Machine] 2018: Week 48 {226.0} “Rejecting Free Pizza”

“I’ll pass on the pizza, then.[1]” Fitness is a choice that can come with a price that maybe we’re not willing to pay: who doesn’t like free pizza? “It was fine until I remembered why I don’t like eating pizza: my stomach was feeling gnarly for a few hours after that.[1]” Sometimes it’s worth enduring certain short-term hardships for long-term gains. For me, the pleasure of eating pizza isn’t worth the pleasure of good fitness.

For me, pizza is more of a symbol.

Most pizza is too greasy and artificial. I’ve always considered the option if the pizza is of high-enough quality to eat it, but like alcohol, I find the risk against my health to not be worth the potential reward of relaxation, though both are temptations haunting my weak mind.

Let’s go back to the symbolism.

If I don’t eat pizza, I also won’t eat similarly greasy or unhealthy things, usually. I’ve cut out the donuts, reduced the sweets to a particular kind of energy bar that placates my sweet tooth without feeling like a complete waste, and will usually be fairly disciplined about my eating habits.

Not always, because I still like to have fun and enjoy myself.

Food has always, and for the foreseeable future – will – be an effective stress reliever for me. I instantly feel better while I’m eating something. Maybe it’s a pre-diabetic condition, mental conditioning, or some other sense of being around the idea of relaxing, but it’s there.

It would be nice to re-route those sensations.

Between my writing, rowing, work, and aforementioned pre-diabetic thoughts, fasting doesn’t seem like like an option I can try. Maybe I’ll start off slow with a 12-hour fast on some weekend I have few responsibilities? From what I’ve heard, fasting is a good way to break mental conditioning.

Maybe it’s refocusing on the present?

Maybe it’s overcoming a battle with that which should be a given, people that fast can, similar to exercising, overcome minor bouts of fatigue? I’m tired while I’m writing this – I woke up at 4 AM, with a little over 6 hours of sleep, and it’s 7:45 PM now – but I’m hanging in there.

Of course, I shouldn’t push myself too much.

Some physical stress in the form of rowing over a long period of time can help me physically, just as mental stress in the form of studying over a long period of time can help me learn a subject. If fasting is mental stress, then limiting the factors encouraging stress should help that.

Let’s expand on that before closing.

Most people operate within their comfort zone, even me, although I try not to do so as much as possible. That’s why I wrote this essay away from my usual writing station. The less we hold onto comfortable things, the easier it can be to be comfortable in any situation. Fasting, rejecting pizza, and maintaining a daily fitness routine: these are all practices.

Let’s practice mental and physical fortitude.

Quotes: [1] Me trying to negotiate my way out of free pizza. Try it sometime. You’ll find it to be a challenge, even after the sixth time…
Sources: My fitness experiences.
This week’s weight: 226.0
Last week’s weight: 223.0
Difference: This was somewhat expected. Just as long as I don’t put on any more weight, this should be fine.
Inspirations: The easiest essay on the list to write.
Related: Past weekly column entries.
Picture: A quick pizza drawing. Nothing really more to it. I should have added a free sign and shiny grease, but oh well.
Written On: October 15th [30 minutes]
Last Edited: First draft; final draft.
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