[Rowing Machine] 2019: Week 30 {223.0} “44 Pounds Down”

Although I was pushing a cart, was wearing a hat, and shaved off my beard, I walked past one of my top five favorite managers in a store without being recognized. I dropped forty-four pounds in the two years since we last talked. Weight management has always been a problem for me. I’ve burned off weight before but put it back on due to negligence. I’m confident that now I can retain this fitter identity.

This weekly column holds me accountable.

Between the weekly weigh-ins that provide a specific variable that can be compared to previous and the actual writings themselves, every week I summarize my week in fitness. That doesn’t leave much room for negligence. I don’t skip writing daily, I’m now reading a minimum of one page daily, and I would like to row daily. I have a bad headache now, so even if it’s for a brief minute, I should still row daily.

Counting my calories is another accountability thing.

My chart just lists the numbers with colors indicating whether that food was primarily carbohydrates, protein, fat, a reasonable mix of those three, or junk food like Kit Kat bars, donuts, or pizza. I have chosen the innocuously generic pizza as my representative of all other junk food. I will still consider eating exclusive or otherwise special pizza, maybe even for special occasions, but not to celebrate a minor victory or just because.

I am not casual with my health anymore.

I give myself relaxing moments, like today where I ate more than usually budgeted to see if that would reduce or alleviate my headache, which it did slightly, but I try not to lean into excess. That should help me long-term. Only if I don’t overdo it. If I gain weight, eat some pizza, and relax on my rowing every once in a while, that’s fine! I’m not some machine. I’m no being of perfection. I’m just some dude that noticed that I was slowly killing myself through bad health habits and wanted to make a change.

Besides, I have a lifetime’s of work to do.

When I burned off 60 pounds in 6 months, I felt like I had achieved “my goal” and as you do when you beat videogames, finish books, and marathon shows, you seldom return. There are new adventures to explore! So I put the weight back on. It’s been a slower time this go around burning the weight off because I’m going for minor changes that can be kept without even thinking, rather than major changes that require constant focus to balance maintaining.

It is less intensive and more sustainable.

Sure, I’ve given up pizza and exercise frequently, so I’m on a different lifestyle path than most, but really, I’m not much different than most everyone else. I’ve just made minor adjustments to my attitude on life – I eat fewer calories and try burning more calories – rather than extreme lifestyle changes.

Maybe in two years, I’ll burn off another forty-four pounds? Maybe more…?

Endtable:
Quotes: None.
Sources: My fitness experiences.
This week’s weight: 223.0
Last week’s weight: 224.0
Difference: I’ve been rowing daily since I got the new rower, along with reading at least one page of 4-Hour Body daily, and I’ve also been sprinkling cinnamon in my coffee and water, which might be just psychosomatic, but it’s all in your head for everything, anyways.
Inspirations: The anecdote about my manager happened a few weeks ago. I’ll queue up ideas like that for future topics, try to write about them while the event is still fresh, or otherwise remember them later and each have their purpose. When it’s nearly instantly after the event, I capture all the nuance, but when it’s a few weeks later, it’s a nice punctuation to the rest of the essay. When it’s a random aside, it’s almost like a refreshing memory.
Related: Past weekly column entries.
Picture: My weight graphs turned into “44 pounds.” I wanted to include somewhere in here how this was a reduction of 16.4% weight, but I forgot, so here it is now.
Written On: July 21st [27 minutes, mobile]
Last Edited: July 23rd [Minor WordPress digitypesetting. Otherwise, first draft; final draft for the Internet.]
My big goal is writing. My most important goal is writing "The Story." All other goals should work toward that central goal. My proudest moment is the most recent time I overcame some fear, which should have been today. I'm a better zombie than I was yesterday. I'm not better than you and you're not better than me. Let's strive to be better every day.