[Rowing Machine] 2020: Week 13 {219.0} “Physical Therapy Sensitivity, Part 8”

Physical therapy has been great for me to address some of the hidden patterns I had physically learned that, over thirty-plus years, caused the issues that sent me almost unnecessarily through the American Healthcare System. How much of that could have been avoided by simple preventative maintenance through learning the basics in compulsory education and having readily available gyms at trivial prices available to all? Well, that might just be being sensitive about the topic…

Instead, this essay was going to focus on sensing nuanced muscle changes.

Particularly when it comes to doing balanced exercises where I’ll do something with both arms – since my headaches originated around my neck area, which ties into the shoulders and arms – if I’m focusing on how both muscles work, I might notice the bifurcation as one muscle works harder than the other.

I notice it in my upper right shoulder and lower left torso.

The left side of my shoulder and the right side of my torso don’t feel stiff at all, but the reverse feels tight, and those muscles don’t go as far. Since my rowing doesn’t hyper-extend me out, I don’t notice those muscles as much, so when I do these exercises especially in PT with experts around, it’s nice to go ask them about that.

It’s like when I had my personal trainer when I first started rowing.

For the first six months, I was learning everything I could about diet and exercise, then after I achieved my weight-loss goal, I tapered back both. I put on all the weight I had burned off and added more. Even though I still had the knowledge, I wasn’t applying it.

Now it’s a bit like relearning new and old tricks.

Since we’re talking about sensitivity, I wonder, what’s the point to all of this? It’s always good to ask that every few months and every few milestones. For me, this rowing column and this writing is to help myself better myself physically and mentally. When I write, I work through problems, so let’s work through the physical and mental sensitivity.

Physically, working through sensitivity means stretching out the sore muscles.

Many of the exercises I’ve been given require certain tools like rubber bands and such, but the more I practice them, the more I can equivate them just by moving my shoulders and back around. The major sensitivity point I had noticed was my shoulder blades. I couldn’t even point to them at first, so I wasn’t sure that I was pinching them as I should have, while doing some of the exercises I was given.

Mentally, working through sensitivity means thinking or talking about big problems.

I don’t have any big concerns right now. I have minor concerns in various areas. Losing my job and my housing are always abstract, obscure possibilities, but their likelihoods are small, and even if they do happen, there will be plenty of transitional time, so that’s not such a big deal. Maybe it’s that sense of having been so transitory for so long and now being stationary that feels weird?

Like muscles that hadn’t been exercised in a while?

Feeling sensitive about physical or mental things is common for everyone and I suppose why people complain as much as they do. For me, I also want to predict bad things before they happen so I can prepare for them. When I live in that future, I don’t live in the present, which could lead to failures in the future since I didn’t prepare myself. I don’t think there’s anything that I could have done in my past to prepare me for my present dealing still with these physical sorts of weirdnesses.

My eyes still feel sore and my head is just slightly askew.

Nothing too much to about other than here, as I’m thinking through these thoughts in overly sensitive ways, but as I approach my last four sessions, I should be careful to notice and state any of these sensations since otherwise I won’t have as easy access to specialized exercises.

Now, as far as general exercises, could they have helped?

I think so, because even having done Wii Fit exercises more frequently throughout the past few months leading up to and during my headaches might have helped me notice that my neck was too far forward, which was placing pressure where it shouldn’t have been. Or at least, I could have noticed something was wrong sooner.

I never had a solid warm-up or warm-down practice.

I made a note to ask that at my next physical therapy session, so when I get that information, I might list and share that here, depending on the results. If there isn’t much more outside of the basics, then I might just write about having learned to practice more neck, shoulder, and back stretches, and research other routines.

It’s nice having a plan on where to go now, though.

When I have any semblance of a headache onsetting, I can think back to my posture and try to iron that out first, so that way by the time I might need any sort of medication – well, I’m still taking the anti-inflammatory – but eventually, I’d like to get off that. It’ll be interesting to see if my body will inflame after that, or if it’s been settled after applying exercises.

To get the full effect, I should probably stop taking it now…?

It would be a shame if things started to kick up again since I’ve been headache-free for nearly two weeks as of this writing, but really, how much of life can I go through without having headaches? Without the fear and anxiety of bad things happening? It’s better to have the tools and resources available to overcome these challenges than be rooted in any sort of escapism to hide from the possibility that they could happen.

When – or if – the next headache hits, I’ll have the physical and mental resources available to properly address those overly-negative sensations.

Quotes: None.
Sources: My fitness experiences.
This week’s weight: 219.0
Last week’s weight: 219.0
Difference: Not bad keeping the same weight all things considered. I’m writing more essays about COVID-19 which will see publication over the next month or more. It’s worrisome but I’m doing fine.
Inspirations: Thinking back through my eighth of twelve physical therapy sessions. I had later talked to my dietitian about anti-inflammatory and he said I should talk to my doctor, so we’ll go with that advisement.
Related: Past weekly column entries. Sober Living essays and Tripping On [The American Healthcare System] chapters.
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Written On: 2020 February 25 [12:39am to 1:22am. Gdocs.]
Last Edited: 2020 February 27 [Second draft; final draft for the Internet.]
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