Although I’ve just got into better health here over the past three weeks, I still want to get back to my old pace, and I keep having to remind myself to… no… take a break. If there’s anything I can do to get into better health, it’s not pushing myself as hard for so long. I’ve trained myself to be motivated through years of writing and rowing. It’s OK for me to take a break.
I know when I’m being lazy versus approaching a breaking point.
That breaking point comes up quickly. In the essay that publishes tonight, I had a day of fatigue because I had overexerted myself the day before. I had a stressful call, sold a computer across town, then took a meandry drive back home, rowed heavily, then woke up to what I thought was a headache but was actually just fatigue. I also hadn’t drank enough water since I was making that cross-town trip and didn’t want to stop into a store somewhere just to use the restroom.
This is all part of my overexcitement to returning to good health.
I should remember not to push it. For that event, I still should have went across town to make the sale, but I should have stayed more hydrated before and risked having to stop in somewhere for a pitstop, and I shouldn’t have rowed more than my norm. I burned off the excess physical stress that had crept in psychologically due to this person’s irrationality, but that would have been more fully resolved by going back into work and seeing, surprise! Nothing bad happened.
I’ve been so desperate to get back into rowing that I’ve forgotten about myself.
I’ll make this promise to myself now that if I don’t feel like rowing, I’ll check in with my surroundings first to see if that is out of laziness or fatigue. The best way for me to do that is to figure out if I feel like writing. If I don’t, then I’m usually too tired to want to do anything else. Another way to look at it is, if I prepared everything for bed and went to sleep, how quickly would I fall asleep?
If the answer is within minutes or seconds, I’m probably pushing myself past fatigue.
I row 5-minute sets twice daily as a sort of casual routine before I go to work and sleep, but maybe I should adjust that, because I used to do that as part of a regime to knock the laziness out of me. Now I almost work too much. Sure, I may not get as much work done now, but my work output is still significantly higher than in previous years, and I’m still much more efficient overall, so I can afford to take the occasional hour or three off from work, so long as I’ve earned it.
I think some of the motivational quotes online approach toxicity.
While I’m all for working on your avocational activities, mine is writing but yours could be painting or programming, it shouldn’t come at the expense of your health. Same with your fitness goals. If I want to burn off weight and get into better physical health, that starts with taking look at my recent health trends and seeing how well I feel. After yesterday’s fatigue, I shouldn’t push myself more today or tomorrow.
How I’ll do that is I’ll schedule self-care on my calendar: “Don’t Overrow”
I have that entry four times over the next four sets as a reminder to take it a little easier. I always prefer doing a light set to no set, unless I’m overexerted, then what I’ll do is I’ll get home from work, prepare my coffee-maker, take my vitamins, drink some water and eat some food, take a bath if I’m feeling sore, then go to bed. What I’ll find is that with that mentality, I’ll tuck myself into bed and sleep well enough to where like I did when I woke up, I felt significantly better, and could think clearly and put in a good rowing set.
What that means isn’t skipping rowing to engage in escapist media.
Even though I’m not pushing myself like an athlete, I am still pushing myself outside my normal physical boundaries by exercising to my limit, which is all subjective, so I have to be the judge of whether I am fatigued or not. Just like with headaches, unless there is a performative action associated with it, most people won’t even think you have a headache if you keep yourself politely proper even though you’re in proper pain.
I should make a pinned tweet talking about this…
That part-two should explain that if I don’t row as I normally do, it’s OK. Our fitness goals are all different. I’m not after having a high-maintenance physique that requires constant effort. I just want to be in better shape than I am today. I want my body to be healthier and to me that means carrying less weight and managing my nutrients so I can be as efficient as I can.
For others, that could be increased muscle mass to lift heavier things.
Less abstractly, my fitness goal from years ago still applies today: I want to be able to climb up to “get the shot” for “a story” to tell stories as my practice to write “The Story.” I want as few impairments in that process as possible. If I can’t climb up a playground jungle gym to get a shot, then there’s a physical impairment that I can overcome, and I feel I’ve made years of progress toward overcoming. I haven’t attempted to climb that same structure, even years after I wrote that essay, but it might be a fun thing to do sometime, the next time I’m back in town, and nearby. My health is good enough now where I could probably do that, but I don’t want to push myself.
At least for two days…
|Sources: My fitness experiences.
– This week’s weight: 221.0
– Last week’s weight: 219.0
– Difference: I’m up three pounds. I guess that’s equally from eating more and walking around less. I would say eating more, primarily, since it’s been a stressful last few weeks.
|Inspirations: No inspiration from April Fool’s Day.|
|Related: Past weekly column entries.|
|Picture: Generic picture.|
|Written On: 2020 March 02 [From 12:56am to “sort of casual routine” to 1:08am, then from 1:34am to 1:53am. Gdocs.]|
|Last Edited: 2020 March 07 [Adapted from Gdoc, so, second draft; final draft for the Internet.]|