[Rowing Machine] 2020: Week 27 {205.5} “2020 Half-Year Review”

While I don’t want to start off by asking something aggressive like “how’re your New Year’s Resolutions going?,” we should always continually check in with ourselves to see how we’re progressing toward our goals. In terms of fitness, I could be doing better, but I could be doing significantly worse, too, so I’d say, overall I’m optimistic. My main goal has been to burn off weight, which I’m doing. My secondary goal is rowing better…

I don’t yet know if rowing caused my lower back pain and shoulder-induced headaches.

I’ve always considered my rowing form to be good or at least good enough. I haven’t had anyone assess my rowing form professionally in years. I was taught good form and have had received no rowing form criticism throughout my time in gyms over the years, but still, that doesn’t mean that I’m doing something wrong.

That’s an area where I can improve once I start rowing again.

I should be rowing by this essay’s publication, but for now, I’ve been sedentary for the worse part of a month, unable to do much more than walk between my bed, computer, bathroom, and kitchen. I’ve made progress to that end over the past few days with the Gabapentin I’ve been prescribed and physical therapy. If this proceeds, I could be back to normal in a week or so…

I’ve been mainly focused on reducing junk calorie intake.

Between counting calories and being more critical of what I’m eating, I’m making good progress. I feel skinnier. The Extra-Large shirts I’ve bought from the many concerts I’ve been to now seem too large for me. I’m going to bathe after I’m done with this set of essays and switch into a Large shirt to see how it feels. I may actually feel more comfortable in Large shirts again. That will be nice. If/When I return to going to concerts, I might need to start buying Large shirts if I can achieve my main goal for 2020:

I want to weigh under 200 pounds.

The real goal is somewhere around 190 to 195 so I can make sure not to bump into or exceed 200 pounds, but anywhere in that area is fine. I’d been around 220 to 230 for a few months there, as I recall, but in the past few weeks in April and May, my weight dropped to 211.5. I’m happy about this because even with the back problems, I feel healthier, in part because I feel like I’m able to get around quicker. I almost feel like I’m able to recover quicker, too, because there’s less mass for my body to treat.

Maybe, that’s just some meandering thinking.

Before my back really started to hurt, I was rowing light 5-minute sets twice daily, which is my plan for days I work. I would like to get back into longer sets on my days off or when I feel the need to release some extra frustration or anger. The thing is, though, like having good rowing form or eating decent enough if not good food, rowing should be done in a controlled amount of time. I enjoy rowing one-hour sets, but I can’t do that frequently. I don’t have the time nor stamina for longer sets.

Honestly, I need to work on rebuilding my stamina for even a light 5-minute set.

That could be seen as a failure toward my health goals, and I would almost admit defeat in that regard, except I look at goals from the perspective of internal, personal motivation. Do we fail goals when we don’t put in enough effort or when we’re thoroughly roadblocked? If we’re driving a car into work, locked onto one road, and that road is blocked or gridlocked, are we late because we could have left earlier or because of the block/gridlock? If it’s some unforeseeable thing like an accident on an otherwise clear day, where we give ourselves plenty of time to leave, then I would say that it’s an external factor that caused the failure.

Once I am back to normal, I’ll return to rowing.

That’s the reason why I don’t think I’ve failed in my secondary goal of rowing more. I have to fix the issues I’m encountering in life, no matter how long it takes, before I can return to my old way of doing things. If my back doesn’t heal up as it should, and I can’t move around to even pick up things from high shelves or pick up something that’s fallen on the floor, how can I expect myself to row? If I were someone else expecting me to row in that condition, I’d think that person was a jerk. I have to learn to be patient with the healing process so I can get back into rowing.

I would say that at least I haven’t squandered this time off from a health perspective.

After tracking my calories for long enough, I can see how I feel when I’m deficient in protein or carbohydrates. Fat deficiency is something I haven’t quite noted, and I tend to eat a good amount of cheese or nuts throughout the day, but when I’m protein-deficient, I feel spacier than normal, and when I’m carbohydrate-deficient, I feel tired. Tracking my calories, then, is a useful diagnostic tool for me to assess how I’m feeling either based on the food I’m eating or the calories I’m tracking.

I haven’t eaten much of anything today and I feel both spacy and tired.

Fitness is about learning to see these parts of yourself and learning to treat them well. If I can respect my body from the perspective of not running it down by rowing, I can respect it by fueling it with good food. After this essay, I’ll wrap things up, eat some balanced food, bathe, and then continue writing more essays later tonight. Plans like this are what I’m learning throughout 2020.

By 2021, will my plans will be ingrained enough to where I won’t have to announce or think about them?

Quotes: None.
Sources: My fitness experiences.
This week’s weight: 205.5
Last week’s weight: 205.5
Difference: No change in weight. I’ve been feeling better over the past few days, but the past week has been up and down. I’ve been trying to eat as much as I can when I feel OK.
Inspirations: Looking at my writing calendar, I realized it was about halfway through the year [should’ve been June 01… but… oops,] so I wanted to write about that.
Related: Past weekly column entries.
Picture: Generic.
Written On: 2020 May 15 [2:56pm to 3:27pm]
Last Edited: 2020 May 15 [First draft; final draft for the Internet.]
My big goal is writing. My most important goal is writing "The Story." All other goals should work toward that central goal. My proudest moment is the most recent time I overcame some fear, which should have been today. I'm a better zombie than I was yesterday. I'm not better than you and you're not better than me. Let's strive to be better every day.