[Rowing Machine] -20 > 3/17

Weight is the easiest fitness goal to measure. Saying, “I’ve burned off a solid 20 pounds since March,” feels good and inspires others. Disengaging from stressful situations is harder to measure. Plowing through those cortisol circumstances, where I might subconsciously need to overeat/overindulge as a coping mechanism, and instead funneling that negative energy into exercise or rewarding myself with positive activities for doing my best. Maybe there is a way to measure that? At least casually?

  • My Weekly Stats:
  • Wednesday: 50 quality rows. Identified a stress point and addressed it mentally. Napped, then addressed it physically through rowing.
  • Thursday: 50 quick rows. Not feeling well, but still gave it an acceptable effort overall. Tired, dehydrated, and a bit of a cold.
  • Friday: 50 rows. Still feeling sick, and a little worse now. My rows are weaker, so I should get in more water and rest; will I…?
  • Saturday: 50 rows. 1-36 were the best rows this week, paused at 37, then concluded with some decent rows. Feeling less sick today, too.
  • Sunday: 50 rows. Solid up until 36 again, paused to catch my breath, before finishing this set at a slower pace. Tired, kinda sick…
  • Monday Morning: 50 rows. Feeling better, still a bit anxious overall, but I rowed at a good pace with good form, so that’s a solid baseline.
  • Monday Bonus: 50 better rows. Felt the fatigue creep up at 30 some rows in, let off on the effort slightly to keep going through until set.
  • Monday Evening: 50 rows. Better pace this time around, and my back is now sore- maybe subconscious? Two people expressed their back issues…
  • Tuesday Morning: 50 good rows. Not the strongest batch of rows this week, but consistent, and felt good overall. I keep forgetting to stretch.
  • Tuesday Evening: 36 good rows until I tweaked something and had an odd ache on my left shoulder. Got back in, did 50 rows, so good minus that.
  • Vitamins: 13 of 14
  • Weight: 246.5 pounds
  • Last Week’s Goals:
    1. Routines: decent and could be better
    2. Read: haven’t read much of anything
    3. Stretch: some, could practice more often
  • This Week’s Goals:
    1. Routines: hammer in: flossing, vitamins, stretching
    2. Read: instead of watch online videos
    3. Relax: some downtime?
  • From Good to Better
    • I’m staying away from the temptation of junk foods. I had plenty of opportunities over the week and said no to basically anything that was too sugary.
    • Other than peanut butter. That might be too much, but you’ve gotta have outlets somewhere, including letting the occasional “but” into a sentence.
    • Oatmeal has really become my staple snack over the last few weeks. It’s good for complex carbohydrates. I just have to start dialing it back a notch, maybe.
  • Sober Living
    • Probably the biggest stressor this week was actually the Punk in Drublic festival. I wasn’t going to let a bunch of daydrinkers bother me, although it did actually…
    • In response, I holed up all of Sunday just to kinda be away from anything. Not really temptation, just stress, and it was nice. That inspired me to book more time off.
    • That, in turn, inspired me to really take a closer look at stressful situations and how I’ve addressed them, featured in the two sections below.
  • Confronting Cortisol Circumstances
    • Realizing the biggest stressor was that daydrinking festival was a good breakthrough for me, because I thought it wouldn’t bother me, and tried to block it off.
    • Starting a new gig was also stressful, though after a while, you do get used to meeting new people and being thrown many new ideas and situations. Just run with it.
    • Driving can be stressful, too. It’s just a matter of planning ahead, going along for the ride, and if you’re running late, reach out so they know, and just go.
  • Disengaging from Stress
    • A few years ago, I spent more than a month binge-watching House, M.D.. It’s still one of my favorite shows, though I can’t waste the time watching that much media.
    • With moderation in mind, I’ve included a half hour of time each evening for disengagement starting with Interviews with Monster Girls. No review this time.
    • To avoid overindulging, I’ll balance that “done with work/writing” time for other activities like reading, gaming, or cleaning. That’s the plan, anyways.
  • Photo
    • I ducttaped off a 24″ by 23.5″ space on my workbench in the photo’s background.
    • As trivial as this sounds, being a bit of a hoarder that constantly accumulates stuff with a terrible habit of filling every possible free spot with stuff, having an area where I cannot leave stuff overnight has been a nice change of pace. The stuff I place there has to be dealt with properly.
    • As a result, I’m getting used to having empty spaces, which is actually a good stress reliever. I can use that and other spaces when I need them, then put things away when I’m done for the day or finish the project.
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