[Rowing Machine] Two Five Zero [2]

It starts small. I’ve been eating more and exercising less. I started including a second scoop of peanut butter in my oatmeal, so now I have a one scoop limit. I’m planning to row for longer sets again. I’ve been ordering the healthier items on menus, and now intend to be more picky with removing the unhealthier bits; I didn’t eat the mayo-drenched shredded lettuce and bun on a fish sandwich this evening, for example.

  • My Weekly Stats:
  • Wednesday: 50 good rows. Feeling back to normal! It’s funny how much of life can be affected by just the smallest things. Don’t let it!
  • Thursday Morning: 50 good rows. Awoke with a headache. Between coffee and rowing, I feel better! Maybe I should row first thing every morning?
  • Thursday Bonus: 50 solid rows. Best set this month, it feels like! Just an all around great pace, stomach feels tight, sore, and I’m relaxed.
  • Thursday Evening: 50 good rows. Solid form and pace. Exhausted now.
  • Friday: 50 good rows. Had a lot on my mind this morning, overslept, and felt exhausted. Even 50 rows helped get me focused for today.
  • Saturday Morning: 50 rows. When you put everything into your workouts, all the stress, fatigue, duty, and chaos is drowned out with one goal.
  • Saturday Evening: 50 solid rows. Felt really good. Might have just been dehydrated. Kept a good pace throughout and really felt it around 35.
  • Sunday: 50 rows. There’s a great feeling when you’re coming up to your count, when you’re completely exhausted, but you have 5 more.
  • Monday Bonus: 50 decent rows. Legs [specifically, above the knee with both legs] weren’t quite feeling it, but still got in a good workout.
  • Monday Evening: 50 good rows. Legs still ache after stretching and going at a more moderate pace. Still a good set. I’ll try again tomorrow.
  • Tuesday Morning: 50 light rows. Felt sluggish this morning. Rowing helped a little, along with some food, so the moral is don’t push too hard.
  • Tuesday Bonus: 100 decent rows. Feeling better after a nap, and held a good pace through 67, lightened, then concluded at 100 uneventfully.
  • Tuesday Evening: 50 rows. Got back into a good rhythm and pace. Form was decent. Felt great, overall. Didn’t try to burn myself out, either.
  • Vitamins: 7 of 14
  • Weight: 250.2 pounds
  • Last Week’s Goals:
    1. Just feel better: made much progress
  • This Week’s Goals:
    1. Weight: Take in slightly less calories
    2. Fitness: Committing to more (3-4) 5 minute sets
    3. Wellness: More downtime to decrease stress
  • From Good to Better
    • Identifying that I should improve my fitness is probably the best thing I’ve done all week. Weighing myself and holding myself accountable to that weight, rather than providing excuses or passes, helped out with that push toward improvement.
    • I’ve been more apt to take short naps rather than trying to do low impact things like watch videos or read pointless stuff online when I’m tired. If external motivators like coffee aren’t cutting it, take a 30 minute nap to cut the edge off tiredness.
    • Growing up, I was taught to not leave anything on my plate unless I couldn’t eat it or I absolutely did not want to eat it. That fish sandwich [cod katsu burger] was a positive trend: after incidentally being asked about not eating the bread, I passed.
  • Sober Living
    • “When was the last time you thought it might be OK to have some alcohol?” “Usually about once a month.” We talked about how it was kind of like breaking up with an ex and then trying to get back. There are bad memories, so better to cut those ties.
    • I used to drink to get away from stress and to disengage from reality for a few hours. I loved that numbing effect. Identifying that and saying it in this public forum might help to encourage me to recreate the good without returning to the bad.
    • Charging into stressful situations more, facing them head on, and conquering them can help me avoid feeling like “maybe it won’t be bad if I indulge a little.” Over 4.5 years sober is like posting 500+ words a day: it’s a habit that I don’t want to break.
  • Confronting Cortisol Circumstances
    • The most stressful thing over the past week was facing my destiny directly. Most people may delay confronting situations that don’t make them comfortable in hopes that they will just go away, subside, or eventually become complacently manageable.
    • Usually when I face stressful situations, upon arriving home, I’ll immediately sleep for perhaps too long. This time, I got home, did a few things, then set my alarm for two hours. Two hours later, I awoke refreshed and mostly ready to take things on.
    • I’ve also started to realize my work patterns. I can’t row first thing in the morning. I’ve been writing in the mornings, less in the evenings, unless I have to like I am now, because I’m usually tired from the day, rather than freshly rested, with some coffee.
  • Disengaging from Stress
    • I finished watching Interviews with Monster Girls and am now onto New Game!. I realized I need a hobby that’s low impact, or more specifically, something I can consume without needing to write about it. See My Anime List for low impact ratings.
    • My email inbox is decluttered now. Everything from my inbox goes into an “inbox” folder to process, maybe being placed in an “outbox,” before being filed away. This system has helped me be more organized and helps decrease email stress.
    • My whiteboard has been helpful in externalizing tasks. If I can’t complete something, put it on the To Do list, then figure out a time when I can. This wasn’t really working well on my smartphone’s calendar, so that calendar will be for historical data.
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    • Incorporating more fitness tools into my routine. I’ve had these hand grippers for a while, lost them, then recently found them. I may try to start with 5 to 10 reps per rowing set.
My big goal is writing. My most important goal is writing "The Story." All other goals should work toward that central goal. My proudest moment is the most recent time I overcame some fear, which should have been today. I'm a better zombie than I was yesterday. I'm not better than you and you're not better than me. Let's strive to be better every day.