I’ve lived alone for ten-plus years. The only prospect of having spine surgery that was scary for me was trying to figure out how my bandages would be tended to daily. I’ve had someone that’s been willing to help, but it’s been a drain on them. Today, through my hubris of showering after having my wound dressed, I got the bandage wet, it peeled partway off. With a hand mirror, I carefully redressed it myself.
I received an email from the contact that I had spoken to at one of the companies dictating my healthcare benefits. To summarize Part 1, I received a survey that had someone’s email, so I emailed them directly to tell them their company was more concerned with red tape than patient care. This eventually got their attention and they wanted to set up a phone chat to learn more, but unfortunately, it seems they didn’t learn.
In ENDLESS WAR, I was thrust into a morality decision that I did not like, so I acted or perhaps overreacted in ways that best suit my core thoughts on life. This didn’t make the other happy. When I woke up, I found myself writing my life’s ethos over the period of roughly ten minutes. It’s not a perfect representation of every aspect of my beliefs. However, as a broad starter, I think it’s fair.
There won’t be a dirty joke here. Instead, I want to argue that if you maintain a sensitive area for yourself, where you can let your guard down and be vulnerable, you can go out into the rest of the world with your shields up and weapon ready to do as you please. This can be a physical location or it can be somewhere mental. I won’t tell you mine, but I’ll tell you others’s.
“i’m about to pull a zombiepaper, speak in full sentences” It feels weird when your reputation precedes you, because you imagine you want to uphold a certain quality or standard, but then the thing about ego, following the Prime Directive, or anything else I’ve written about on-topic, is that it’s all a ruse. Who cares? I care what people think only because I don’t want to be seen negatively, but others don’t mind; should I?
I’ve met many partially-famous people over the years, but I stopped being impressed by people after realizing how much of a performance most people put on. They pretend to be suave when they’re scared and we believe it since we can’t see how they’re scared. I respect people that create things I’ve liked for years. What happens, then, when I shifted past being a fan to start interacting with them, therefore, disobeying the prime directive?
I’ve never liked going up on stage to talk to large groups of people, nor talking to large groups of people, or addressing more than two people, but I suppose I’ve been able to get over some of that through sheer force of bullheaded determination. If I need to do something, I’ll shut out the fear, then go do it. Is that what happens when, like I mentioned in Part 1, we ‘disobey the prime directive?’
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I grew up shy. I used to fear what other people thought about me, and might still as we all do, but as I try to advance myself as a writer, I will find myself coming into contact with others that will have their opinions of me. Most people probably avoid making things because of that opinion backlash. I liked the idea of the prime directive, but I dunno, I’d rather get out there more.
There’s a person I know that is incredibly selfish – to the degree where he complains that when he talks to people, he “can’t get a word edgewise in,” but when I listen to my friend, he only complains and doesn’t pay attention when I talk about things. Prasad has poor listening skills. He’ll ask the same questions multiple times. We all have a Prasad within us, so, how do we minimize his presence in conversations?
The typical association with parasocial relationships, where let’s say you as the reader don’t personally know me as the writer but assume we have a special sort of relationship because you’ve read my writings and have peered into what I’ve told you about myself, is negative. I think there are positives. The primary positive is figuring out your own values as applied to others. The primary negative, then, would be projecting yourself onto other people.