Bullshit Jobs provided me with some hidden information about the nature of the American Healthcare System – and perhaps the Canadian and UK equivalents. It’s provided some context about some of the many experiences I’ve had, ranging from my own time working in healthcare to being a patient. My experiences dealing with my first primary care physician’s office, where I told their office manager to stop weaponizing HIPAA to inconvenience me, could summarize this system’s bullshit.
It’s unfortunate to consider, but my health returned to its pre-injections state almost fully today. I still have some of the lingering problems from the past week as my body decomposed back to its zombified state that the injections temporarily relieved me from. I wonder, then, if my physical health worsened after all that – were the injections just a big waste of time? I got some of my life back, temporarily, but at what cost?
“no no, eat
you’re skin and bones
you need your strength!” As of this writing, it’s been two weeks since my two spine injections and I’m feeling almost normal. I was well enough to stream today, but, I overexerted myself in the excitement of drawing and streaming. Throughout the past few months, I’ve found myself being nearly skin and bones. I had first noticed it when a doctor pointed it out some months ago, though.
While I waited nearly two hours to get my injections to aid in the recovery process of my near-year of spine problems, my mind went, as it always does, to “The Story.” The thing that’s interesting to me about writing essays like this is that they truly do help me write fiction, even if on the surface it’s all just rambly bullshit about whatever nonsense is kicking around in my head for today’s stream-of-consciousness considerations.
Yesterday, I went to the thrift store and the supermarket. I had the physicality to push a shopping cart and walk around slowly as I looked at various items. Today, I woke up to a headache with lower back pain, including my tailbone. Was the adventure worth the pain I experienced there, and would I do it again? I suppose in some sense, it was good to see where my physicality is at right now.
I had spine surgery five weeks ago, and though I’m still in the healing process, I have been somewhat productive, at least in terms of casually meandering through media. I’ve been watching friend-of-the-website NamedGhost stream a Breath of the Wild-style game, Genshin Impact, while reading Bullshit Jobs or other media. It’s nice having something like a livestream going on in the background even if I’m not watching it entirely [sorry]. It’s the impact of motivation.