I’ve been thinking about how much I want to research and reference tropes, as listed on TV Tropes, before I begin writing this novel – a thirty-day period at Eville Medical in the Sammohini Arc of “The Story” – until my thoughts surrounding putting these characters or story beats into convenient storytelling devices devolves into questions about whether such patterns actually happen in real life, then I just change the mental channel. It’s good to be aware…
Doing anything requires self-confidence. If you go to the store to bread, you’ve gotta pick your parking stall or pick a seat on the bus, get the bread, take your spot in line, and use the time to purchase the bread, which could slow down the line for others if you take too long fumbling with your currency. Although innocent enough, we can extrapolate examples from there; writing takes extreme self-confidence – or, more likely, delusion.
What hill are you willing to die on? What is the one goal you hold in such high regard that you will do whatever it takes, for however long it may take, to achieve? My truth is, even after fully envisioning the achievement resulting from surviving that hill, any vulnerable moment contains elements trying to drag me down. Why can’t we ignore these distractions and continue our climb? Why do we fight in meaningless battles?
While there’s something to be said for playing life safely, when the opportunity strikes, jump up on life’s stage! Get outside your comfort zone! Even for just a minute. The experience will probably be uncomfortable, you might need to push through fatigue, or embarrass yourself. You might step in spilled beer, get bumped into harmlessly, or get your picture taken. You also might not get the best shot. That’s still better than no shot whatsoever!
What happens when our egos shatter? Isn’t that it? Will we ever be the same as we were before cracking that egg? Our self-confidence, our pride in ourselves and what we’re able to accomplish with our lives, our egos, well, they’re not eggs! I took this photo the morning before the most recent time, and hopefully the last time, my ego cracked. With time, I reinforced my self-confidence to be better than before. Here’s how: