I look at life from the approach that if you try something a few times and it doesn’t work, why not try something else? I guess I am still beholden to my ego as much as anyone. We can’t, and nor should we, get the best of ourselves, but if we’re not happy with what we’re doing, why not try a different approach? The main thing to lose is the ego attachment to previous approaches…
When you’re not scared of edits, there’s a certain pleasure that happens from seeing the edits that were made by your collaborators. You forget what you specifically wrote or changed. You look at what’s in front of you, and you think, ‘wow, this is really coming together!’ Today, I started editing a story taking place within ENDLESS WAR somewhere around 12:30pm and wrapped up my edits through chapter three at 2:12pm. Here are thsome thoughts.
Writing is all about overcoming the fear of opinions from others. When you write for yourself, you can write whatever you want. When you share your writing with anyone, effective writing is taking the idea that’s in your head, packaging it in a way that anyone can understand, so they can let your ideas live, survive, and thrive in their minds. This requires constantly tearing apart your work to rebuild it. Don’t fear those criticisms.
I’ve been thinking about how much I want to research and reference tropes, as listed on TV Tropes, before I begin writing this novel – a thirty-day period at Eville Medical in the Sammohini Arc of “The Story” – until my thoughts surrounding putting these characters or story beats into convenient storytelling devices devolves into questions about whether such patterns actually happen in real life, then I just change the mental channel. It’s good to be aware…
Doing anything requires self-confidence. If you go to the store to bread, you’ve gotta pick your parking stall or pick a seat on the bus, get the bread, take your spot in line, and use the time to purchase the bread, which could slow down the line for others if you take too long fumbling with your currency. Although innocent enough, we can extrapolate examples from there; writing takes extreme self-confidence – or, more likely, delusion.
What hill are you willing to die on? What is the one goal you hold in such high regard that you will do whatever it takes, for however long it may take, to achieve? My truth is, even after fully envisioning the achievement resulting from surviving that hill, any vulnerable moment contains elements trying to drag me down. Why can’t we ignore these distractions and continue our climb? Why do we fight in meaningless battles?
While there’s something to be said for playing life safely, when the opportunity strikes, jump up on life’s stage! Get outside your comfort zone! Even for just a minute. The experience will probably be uncomfortable, you might need to push through fatigue, or embarrass yourself. You might step in spilled beer, get bumped into harmlessly, or get your picture taken. You also might not get the best shot. That’s still better than no shot whatsoever!
What happens when our egos shatter? Isn’t that it? Will we ever be the same as we were before cracking that egg? Our self-confidence, our pride in ourselves and what we’re able to accomplish with our lives, our egos, well, they’re not eggs! I took this photo the morning before the most recent time, and hopefully the last time, my ego cracked. With time, I reinforced my self-confidence to be better than before. Here’s how: