My neck feels awful. Everything feels terrible and I hate it. Everything I’ve been taught over the past few months is not helping. Only escaping into other things, like writing this essay, are helping me out. Otherwise, I can’t concentrate. I can’t form complete sentences or even spell correctly. This is how a mindbender headache feels. I will probably have to deal with these throughout the rest of my life. There’s no cure, only mitigation.
I watched Vertigo for the first time today, in March 2020, and before that, the first time I watched Vertigo was January 2012. Eight years is a long time for any degree of change. We can consider inwardly with any sort of Ship of Theseus-style change or outwardly, just as we can consider the changes of time between when this movie was new and today. What if, instead, we consider the spaces where our bored minds dwell?
ENDLESS WAR is a Discord MUD. It’s also an intimidating concept, even with a guide and contextual lecture explaining the lore. This essay intends to introduce a non-player of the game to it, so that although you won’t be an expert, you will at least know some of the fundamentals. The high skill floor, perhaps, might be part of the appeal. Since playing, however, I’ve found it deeply meditative and worth sharing with other people.