As this camera roll shows, reverse-chronologically, I took my first Methylprednisolone dose, and then found I had the energy to work on three separate projects. As I was going, I was finding myself going back to my old, learned, hoarding behaviors where I was coming up with new spots for things instead of working with or reusing existing spots. As I wrote for a note to remember: “Don’t build new pathways when existing ones work.”
If I were to summarize the 2020 albums as I heard them, as I did in 2018, even though everything went to shit, at least we got some good music in many genres. The year started off like any other, with my earlier meandry reviews implying a mindset of getting out in life more to random concerts and such, but after COVID closed concerts and my health problems, well, at least I heard 193 good albums released in 2020.
Given unlimited time, either in a given day or lifetime, how would you spend it? For me, I ask myself that question – indirectly – daily. It’s not so much a question about whether I’m using my time as efficiently as possible as much as whether what I’m doing is what I’m enjoying the most. If I’m listening to music I don’t enjoy, even if I have unlimited time, I have unlimited resources to pick something else.
During these COVID-19 times, what’s been helping me is focusing on singular topics and digging in deep enough to let the undulating uncertainties pass from the heights of their anxieties toward calmer sensations. With digital devices, it’s easy to tab away from whatever you’re working on, launch into the news, and let the fear of missing out prevent the sort of concentration that will let you feel peace and calm when you need it most.
I have acquired many books I want to read, yet my mind constantly encourages me to visit more thrift stores, bookstores, and acquire – rather than read – more. Is it, then, easier to own than read? What if we adjust our thinking away from “acquiring” to “finishing” as the biggest obstacle in completing tasks? We can oversaturate our task-acquisition to anything we want making us spoiled by choice. What if we oversaturate our task-finishing time instead?
I’ve been at Wall Market in FF7 for over five months. It’s not a difficult part in the game. There aren’t any wild fetch quests. I’ve been there so long only because I’ve wanted to soak in all the nuances of the world that I’ve procrastinated on spending that hour to actually go about soaking it all in. These sorts of minor, tangential thoughts are the ones I want to write about in “Media Meandry.”