This will be a fastly written, low-polish essay to cover the details of how my health has gone in the two days since my sacroiliac joint healthcare event. Overall, I am feeling much better. Yesterday, I rode the rush of feeling in better health, but today, I ran into the roadblock of pushing myself too hard yesterday, so now I am writing this in a tired stupor. Tomorrow, then, should be better, with more rest.
I am writing this sentence just before 3pm, waiting in the lobby for my 3pm appointment. Prior to arriving, I spent over 2 hours driving to get here. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and my thanks goes to my insurance company for authorizing this injection yesterday. I enjoyed the drive. I did a two-plus hour recording talking about some story ideas, other ideas, and figuring out if recording was more enjoyable than listening to music. It was!
It’s been nice having three places to express the stress of my healthcare situation, between these writings, talking with family, friends, acquaintances, and talking through my feelings. I feel like this is something more people should have – rather than keeping emotions bottled up, using negative emotions in positive ways has helped me significantly, and I’ve seen others that let negative emotions be engulfing enough to where I distance myself. How can you express your stress?
The fun thing about coming up with tools is using them, and here, I could take the negative energy about being told I need to go drive hours and hours to get medical treatment and I could use that energy somewhat productively. I recorded some video of me browser-exploring the part of town I might be flung into and found some interesting results. Were it not for this recording style… I would have remained angry.
I forget what exactly I was thinking when I designed this logo for this category of essays I’ve been calling “Rowing Machine” for years. I was probably still optimistic about my health. I designed this logo in late October 2020, and was thinking I was on the mend after my surgery, not yet letting the pain medications wear off to reveal more pain than before my surgery. Over one year later, I feel rebranding is OK…
I wasn’t sure how I wanted to go about writing fitness essays for 2022’s Wednesday essays since I haven’t rowed in over a year. When I started planning for 2021’s fitness essays, I was still optimistic about my health. I wouldn’t say that I’ve given up, but realistically, I won’t be rowing for the next few months of essays published here, written in late 2021, so why lie? Let’s consider my writing plans for these essays.
Today’s podcast about healthcare was the first in a planned series that bella and I will do. bella’s broadcasts typically involve hir crafting while talking with the audience, and sometimes the “witch-hut on the edge of town” gets into lively discussions, so joining a call while sie crafts and I search for the things we talk about to show on the VOD is a good dynamic that we’re planning to do on a weekly basis.
An alternate title for this might be “Verbally Cartoonish Fisticuffs,” but I’d rather focus on the positive aspects of where I’m headed rather than the negative. I detailed everything at length in a recording as I worked on more painting, so I’ve already processed my emotions thoroughly, which has let me figure out my long-term plan, which is switching my primary care physician/PCP to get care elsewhere. The good of learning moderation, then, is self-moderation.
My first visit to this pain management doctor’s office was a bust because they had no information on me, so they acted like I was a drug addict looking for pain medication. Since I’m not and since I’m actually looking for pain relief, with my primary care physician[PCP]’s office sending along all the imaging, now they have a treatment plan: two rounds of injections to confirm whether the sacroiliac joint is at fault, then, ablation.
I took my offline rants, by way of recording as I drew, and brought the format to a broadcast. The resulting experiment wasn’t successful in terms of bringing in a large audience, but it was successful for a better reason: I was able to meander through some of the problems I’ve been mulling over concerning an upcoming doctor’s appointment, concerns about working, and blasted all the anxiety away through addressing three possible outcomes coming up.