It’s about a half-year into 2020, so how did I do with my 2020 non-New Years Resolutions? Objectively, I failed. Subjectively, I’m still on course, it’s just taking a few months longer than I thought, and leading me down some roads I wasn’t anticipating. I’ve been able to work through them as best I can and even being as optimistic as I can, there are still ways I can improve myself and my working process going forward.
Throughout these essays where I’ve brainstormed while playing Pokémon LeafGreen, I’ve discovered realizations about videogame mechanics/stories I like and my motivations in life. I might not have realized half these were it not for this challenge of figuring out why I like or dislike certain things while playing. How will I apply these realizations? Besides playing more videogames with the leveling up mechanics I like and positioning myself toward a lifestyle that’s more predictably satiating?
Though I’m tempted to hole up for a month to write a novel, I still have my daily duties and monthly minds. I’m batching together the important chores – pay the bills, check the bank statements and credit card balances, and verify all the important paperwork is updated – so my head will be free of obvious obligations before beginning my project. After the jump, I’ll outline my plans for taking care of these potential procrastination priorities.
I need to fix the lighting in my lightbox. Within my mental checklist(s), however, this task has such a low priority that even if all the lights fall over the next few months there will be no significant impact to myself or my projects. I’ve put time sinks like photography for “The Story” on-hold for higher priority tasks, including writing daily, Seattle Indies writing, and Blah Blah development, with my highest-priority task being moving “Zeal.”
It’s been close to a year now of weekly fitness updates, originally just purely essays and now featuring some technical or somewhat anecdotal fitness information, and I can now officially say that I’m regularly and comfortably tightening my belt loop one loop! I used the previous loop basically as long as I’ve has this belt, other than my 6 month, 60 pound weight loss period, along with its surrounding months, so it’s a huge achievement for me!
Starting four years and eight months ago, I began developing mental fortitude against temptation, negativity, and the stresses that would otherwise compel me to numbness through alcohol. This pursuit of sobriety propelled me into self-improvement, which I partially credit for my endurance to evade sketchy situations in my conscious life. How about in my unrestrained dreams? Where anything is possible, including finding myself pouring vodka into this very glass, splashing in some orange juice, and…
I’ve been steadily getting heavier after I stopped rowing heavier 5 minute rowing sets. Starting in late March, I weighed 267. Using only the fortnightly titles, here’s how my weight progressed: 260, 256, 255, 254, 253, 252, 251, 249, 247, 250, 246, 248, 250, and I weighed in at 253 pounds on Tuesday morning. Now that I have exacting data showing that I need to burn more calories, or consume less calories, I can use that information to make the necessary changes for my fitness. Fortunately, it isn’t all doom below.
After 2 days of warehouse work, moving boxes and shrink-wrapping pallets or heavy abuse to my body, I needed a float session. It’s been over 2 months. The tragedy of life is that you can abuse many parts of your body and mind, and usually they’ll snap back into order, except your spine. Your spine is the foundation for all activities, to be considered “spineless” is a sin, yet how do we go about repairing our spines?
Even when we know our successes are completely based on the effort we give, and we fully understand the fragility of life, there are still days and moments where it’s difficult to put in the work. We get sick, tired, and lazy. It is easier to idle. That’s when I think about how wasted time ends up disappearing forever and writing during those moments where I’ve felt unmotivated have led to some really inspirational stuff.
“I have nothing to write today.” That thought stopped me in my tracks during one of my better rowing sessions. What a challenge! Let’s walk around the idea of writing blocks until we find a point to start chipping away what stops us. If writing blocks are anything like sculpting blocks, then it could be as easy as screwing inhibition and starting, although if it were that easy, then there’d be nothing after the jump.
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