[Sober Living] Motivation Through Demotivation

The worst thing about these headaches is that they kill any motivation for me to want to do better with my life. Headaches, for me, are like speed limit signs on the highways of life where the cops and narcs of life decided an arbitrary speed limit for living. Sometimes that’s good. We don’t want fools speeding. However, even when I’m doing nothing mentally or physically strenuous, I’ll be pulled over on that mental highway…

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[Sober Living] Anxiety While Rowing

When I row, sometimes my mind will wander to anxious places, where I’ll be worried about things that I cannot do. Whether it’s checking my mail to see if an important letter has arrived, replying to an important email, doing something important, or unimportant, the moments when I am least able to do something is typically when my mind remembers that it should have done something – particularly, months ago. When these events happen, I ponder…

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[Sober Living] Life After Headaches?

Dredging through headaches long enough, to where any errand distraction can debilitate, I wonder… how will my life be different after these headaches stop? If I currently feel like someone slammed an aluminum baseball bat against the back of my head yet I still sit down to write, how will things be when there’s no pressure, no subtle feeling implying potential aneurysms or strokes, and nothing standing between me and my goals? No more procrastination.

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[Sober Living] my headacee journey

I woke up to a headache that felt like four parts of my brain were simultaneously trying to destroy each other. I reached out to my insurance’s third party company for “a second opinion” since the first ones were so useless. They urgently wanted my complete medical history for the past few days. This is the first time I’ve been able to reply to them. So I basically dumped my current headache state on them.

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[Sober Living] 2019 In Review

I have no choice but to be a hypocrite leaving 2019 and launching myself into 2020 with debilitating headaches and nowhere else to turn but two diphenhydramine per day, maybe three, no numb the pain that just won’t stop. If I could do anything else, I would. The over-the-counter medications I take, mockingly prescribed by apathetic doctors, do nothing. What else can I do for this short-term pain? So long as I don’t overdo it, I suppose…

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[2019 Novel] Re-Reading The Novel

It’s been about twenty-five days since I last looked at my first novel – A Story About Self-Confidence: What’s In A Name?, a month~long story at Eville Medical in the Sammohini Arc of “The Story.” I’ve found some typos. That’s embarrassing. However, I’m enjoying what I’ve read so far, and commenting along. I’m not sure if I’ll do this for the entire novel, just because of time constraints, but one month later gives some interesting context.

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[Sober Living] Tripping On Prednisone

The headaches got so bad I felt like a junkie by the time I stood in line waiting for the anti-inflammatory medication that had cured my headaches for years before. I had to wait for the right headache, one severe enough that drove me to feel like requesting a lobotomy would be a good idea and still being able to drive before I could see a doctor that would listen to me. Here’s that story.

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[Sober Living] Tripping On Cyclobenzaprine

All I feel like doing currently is sleeping, or, staring off into the ceiling and not doing anything at all. This isn’t a good feeling for someone like myself that is highly motivated, driven, dedicated, and willing to work past exhaustion in the short-term for long-term goals, but, when you do that for too long, sometimes it might be OK? No. It’d be one thing if the headaches went away. Cyclobenzaprine just numbs those storms.

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[Sober Living] Tripping On Sumatriptan

“The neurologist diagnosed me with migraines within 30 seconds of talking to me, without listening to all of my symptoms.[1]” Later on in the conversation with doctor-number-five, and the first doctor to actually listen to me and my headache symptoms, I received a recommendation to go see another neurologist because “that neurologist was not the right one for you.[2]” Apparently, they often act like that[2], so I should expect similarly mixed reactions during future neurology interactions…

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[Sober Living] Tripping On Amitriptyline

The only time I’m depressed is taking anti-depressants. Those are the hours and days where I do nothing, feel nothing, and want nothing from life. Those are the times where I stare at nothing for three hours and feel content with hating everything about myself. I couldn’t quite describe this to Doctor-Number-Two, based on how I felt when taking Zoloft, but I sure can say it based on being on Amitriptyline until I regained myself.

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