For this ENDLESS WAR contest, I’m making a six-panel comic showing how players can access an in-game area. This is the first time I’ve made a comic. While I was working on the second drafts for the first two panels, I listened to two podcasts. During a Pro Crastinators Podcast episode, I realized something significant: I don’t have to limit my storytelling to just writing. Although I prefer writing novels, I can draw comics too.
After winning the contest in ENDLESS WAR, I gained some degree of social respect and recognition within the community, as might be expected from contributing art and culture to a community that has deep amounts of lore. It’s a wonderful feeling to be part of a group of people that are all talented in their own right, whether in art, the gameplay itself, or even just being good people, and being accepted within that community.
In ENDLESS WAR, when you join a team, Killer or Rowdy, you have a communicator channel to strategize where you’re going to do this or that. When you abstain from those as a Ghost/Staydead, well, we still have a communicator channel, but ours is called The Losers Club. For a contest about the leaderboard, I imagined it as a breakroom one might have in an office where those of us who’ve abstained instead hang out.
I don’t have any good introductory quotes for this essay because I was so enraptured in the moment. You can skip to about three hours and 20 minutes into this ENDLESS WAR art community contest, after they played Terraria, where they reviewed my entries. Although I did not win, I was a runner-up, and this is an example where second place is not the first loser. Any contribution worth a damn was a positive, well-received addition.
The ENDLESS WAR dream is over. I joined the Discord MUD in April 2020, shortly after the nearly three-hour lecture dropped, [if we’re not counting how I dropped in late into 2018 as a silent nobody], which was right as the “dream” replays of seasons 1 and 2 started. Now that we’re well into season 3, let’s reflect on the Fibonacci sequence of complexity in each season and how each end invites itself to a new beginning. Losing reveals finding.
After ENDLESS WAR returned from its “dream” – where we played an earlier, less intricate version – the full gameplay mechanics of the Discord MUD impressed me enough to draw my updated “RFCKsona.” Admittedly, I spent too much time drawing it, and the rifle looks weird, but I captured an exciting moment for me in this drawing, and through writing this essay, I can share that experience with others, and I think I’ll start drawing more again.
“i’m about to pull a zombiepaper, speak in full sentences” It feels weird when your reputation precedes you, because you imagine you want to uphold a certain quality or standard, but then the thing about ego, following the Prime Directive, or anything else I’ve written about on-topic, is that it’s all a ruse. Who cares? I care what people think only because I don’t want to be seen negatively, but others don’t mind; should I?
I’ve met many partially-famous people over the years, but I stopped being impressed by people after realizing how much of a performance most people put on. They pretend to be suave when they’re scared and we believe it since we can’t see how they’re scared. I respect people that create things I’ve liked for years. What happens, then, when I shifted past being a fan to start interacting with them, therefore, disobeying the prime directive?
I’ve never liked going up on stage to talk to large groups of people, nor talking to large groups of people, or addressing more than two people, but I suppose I’ve been able to get over some of that through sheer force of bullheaded determination. If I need to do something, I’ll shut out the fear, then go do it. Is that what happens when, like I mentioned in Part 1, we ‘disobey the prime directive?’
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I grew up shy. I used to fear what other people thought about me, and might still as we all do, but as I try to advance myself as a writer, I will find myself coming into contact with others that will have their opinions of me. Most people probably avoid making things because of that opinion backlash. I liked the idea of the prime directive, but I dunno, I’d rather get out there more.