[Sober Living] Why I’ve Collected

I’ve collected all these things to satisfy, distract, my inner demons. When I’m in one of these more intense battles of the mind, “a fight for my soul,” what helps me though is usually some new little distraction. My inner critic, so powerful that anything anyone says is but a whisper in comparison to its screams, enjoys these plastic distractions. Sometimes sleep helps as well. I hate not having control over my thoughts like this.

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[Moving Zeal] 3-Month Stress Marathon

I’ve been under constant, near-intolerable stress, daily for the past three months. By the time this essay publishes, I’ll have 11 months left on a 1-year apartment lease. I’ll need to downsize everything even further to afford a cheaper apartment, however, I’ve budgeted enough for this year of casual downsizing. These past three months have been rough, but this past week has been rougher. In this marathon homestretch, I’m so close, yet so far; fatigued; exhausted.

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[Moving Zeal] Living in Boxes

For the foreseeable future, I will live with my possessions mostly in boxes, not being displayed or outwardly enjoyed, doubtfully even under the same roof, and certainly not readily available. This is the path I’ve chosen. I’ve learned much along this journey, so far, and I still have months to go before things normalize. I’m only now learning the value of space and objects. If I want to read something, I’ll box out the time.

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[Moving Zeal] Empty Shelf Space

After over twelve weeks of addressing clutter in all areas of my life, I have to learn to get used to empty [shelf] space. Even three months ago, I couldn’t leave any surface without something to fill or clutter it, yet now, I almost struggle to fill the shelves with stuff. I will probably half-fill this plastic shelving unit I cleared off over the next few days, but it’s not the urgent rush it’s been.

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[Moving Zeal] Putting Away Childhood

Putting away these 90s X-Men toys has been the hardest thing for me to do since I began pummeling my psyche’s hoarding tendencies after Thanksgiving. I kept a majority of my stuff, donated some, but these… they impersonated many of the same toys I had as a kid. I still have them all. Whether they’re painted over or not, I boxed them up fairly easily, but these were harder. I’m trying to figure out why…

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[Moving Zeal] I’m Not Moving…!

About once or thrice a week, I’ll imagine that I’m not actually moving. It’s not that something will snap me out of it. Looking at an empty space won’t remind me that this is all real. It’s usually just an instantaneous thought, my mind, in disbelief, struggling to catch up with inevitabilities, innocently screening my mind with memories of life a year or five ago. It’s like how photos can really make us time travel…

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[Moving Zeal] Intention of Series

I will soon achieve the goal of publishing my first book, entitled, “Moving Zeal: A psychological study examining the decluttering and de-hoarding process as a means of self-discovery.” This ebook, with a possible limited print run, will be an anthology of the best essays originally published on this website. Through this moving process, I’ve learned a lot about myself and my attachment to materialism, and so the book’s intention is to share that learning process.

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[Moving Zeal] Zeal is Everywhere

Zeal is the name I’ve given to my office arrangements – whether it will eventually become a studio space for writers to write or just a home office, I don’t know – and this was its arrangements during my final two days before moving. I’m excited. I’ve been spending most of the past 97-some days analyzing everything I own. My failure in moving here was not analyzing how I would arrange the infrastructure, storage, and various workspaces.

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[Moving Zeal] Not Quite Trash…

All of this stuff I’ve collected over the years is forcing me into expensive housing to store all of it. It’s overwhelming to the point of losing time due to constant anxiety and stressful to the point of being unable to pack. I’m having trouble focusing and can’t enjoy leisurely activities. I won’t be able to afford the space or stuff for too long. Why not just throw out everything that isn’t irreplaceable or sentimental?

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[Moving Zeal] Trashing Old Projects

My biggest source of clutter was all of the half-finished projects I never completed. I’ve learned to complete projects with this website, where I come up with an idea and publish an essay daily, but I’ve only just learned during this downsizing-move to finish or trash projects. Supergluing bolts onto a toy car was just a fun project, except, I never did the final steps to finish the project and display it properly. No more!

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