[Sober Living] Focus On Externals

When I’m feeling the worst of my sobrieties being tested, either directly through temptations or indirectly through headaches of sensations unfathomable, what I’ve done most to overcome anything regrettable is focusing all of my energy into something – almost anything. Whether that’s writing, art, or talking to others, I’ve found that if I can focus on something for long enough, the worst of those internal waves trying to knock me down will fade for a while.

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[Sober Living] Pain Behind Eye

There’s a pain behind my right eye that won’t go away. It feels like pressure and prevents me from focusing. This is one of many invisible pains that don’t seem to go away, and just linger around long enough to appear gone, then return like a crash. Years ago, I never got headaches. I read an email from someone saying they needed to stay home because of a headache and ignorantly thought it wasn’t bad.

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[Sober Living] Motivation Through Demotivation

The worst thing about these headaches is that they kill any motivation for me to want to do better with my life. Headaches, for me, are like speed limit signs on the highways of life where the cops and narcs of life decided an arbitrary speed limit for living. Sometimes that’s good. We don’t want fools speeding. However, even when I’m doing nothing mentally or physically strenuous, I’ll be pulled over on that mental highway…

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[Sober Living] Anxiety While Rowing

When I row, sometimes my mind will wander to anxious places, where I’ll be worried about things that I cannot do. Whether it’s checking my mail to see if an important letter has arrived, replying to an important email, doing something important, or unimportant, the moments when I am least able to do something is typically when my mind remembers that it should have done something – particularly, months ago. When these events happen, I ponder…

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[Sober Living] Life After Headaches?

Dredging through headaches long enough, to where any errand distraction can debilitate, I wonder… how will my life be different after these headaches stop? If I currently feel like someone slammed an aluminum baseball bat against the back of my head yet I still sit down to write, how will things be when there’s no pressure, no subtle feeling implying potential aneurysms or strokes, and nothing standing between me and my goals? No more procrastination.

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[Sober Living] my headacee journey

I woke up to a headache that felt like four parts of my brain were simultaneously trying to destroy each other. I reached out to my insurance’s third party company for “a second opinion” since the first ones were so useless. They urgently wanted my complete medical history for the past few days. This is the first time I’ve been able to reply to them. So I basically dumped my current headache state on them.

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[Sober Living] RGEs and Sobriety

Among the times over the past nearly seven years, I’ve come the closest to breaking my sobriety, a majority of them have been due to work-related stress. Whether that meant thoughts of a resume-generating event causing chaos on my financial situation and employment status or days after weeks of one stress after another that led into thoughts of wanting to escape all of that, well, now I’m beginning to find balance: work an easy job…

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[Sober Living] Self Image Disaster

I think, secretly, we worry too much about what we think others think of us. What if we accepted ourselves for ourselves, what we look like, and our flaws? This would undermine many organizations – materialism, pharmaceuticals, fashion – and help us feel better. What if you like wearing a shirt that has a hole in it and no one cared about that hole? You wouldn’t need to buy a new shirt. Why not try that lifestyle?

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[Sober Living] 2019 In Review

I have no choice but to be a hypocrite leaving 2019 and launching myself into 2020 with debilitating headaches and nowhere else to turn but two diphenhydramine per day, maybe three, no numb the pain that just won’t stop. If I could do anything else, I would. The over-the-counter medications I take, mockingly prescribed by apathetic doctors, do nothing. What else can I do for this short-term pain? So long as I don’t overdo it, I suppose…

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[2019 Novel] Sex, Drugs, Violence

I should have a warning about the contents within A Story About Self-Confidence: What’s In A Name?, a month~long story at Eville Medical in the Sammohini Arc of “The Story” for its sexual content, drug/alcohol references, violence, and whatever else might offend people. Oh! Let’s start with offensive language. The only offensive language is the aforementioned cultural provocation. Otherwise, no fucks, no shits, no damns, and only one crap was given in my first novel.

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