I didn’t have enough spoons to go out today, or this week, to donate the items I had wanted to donate. I don’t have excuses. That would be if I, say, forgot the items I casually brought to my car’s trunk or passed by a thrift store and didn’t stop by. This was more like I didn’t have the energy to go out and give away those donations or bag other things to go donate.
I still have to remind myself near-daily that I have to work within my means. As I approach my fifth week since having spine surgery, I am finally starting to feel “normal,” if you will, which my current normal is not feeling nearly incapacitated due to physical constraints. I’m not at the point where I could feasibly run errands – I can barely walk them – so it’s a challenge for me to take life somewhat easier.
A trip to the supermarket for me currently would be like a trip to the planet Saturn for you. That might be overly hyperbolic, so let’s say it would be like if you needed to drive ten hours away when you’re really only used to driving maybe fifteen-minute trips to the supermarket. Each day I decide not to go somewhere, it’s because I don’t have enough gas in the tank. I couldn’t drive to Saturn.
When we don’t feel well, but not significantly unwell as featured in Part 1 of 2, what to do? It might seem easy to push through the pain or to take it easy. What happens if the potential for that pain is a daily concern? For people suffering from chronic pain, chronic fatigue, and assorted other physical issues, there’s a tricky balance between living life and managing pain. This is one aspect I’ll explore in “The Story.”
Spoilers?: Minor [dealing with life]
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What happens when you make weekend plans only for physicality to majorly disrupt your plans? The obvious answer is to cancel, defer, or reschedule those plans, deal with the physicality, then go from there. For people suffering from chronic pain, chronic fatigue, and assorted other physical issues, there’s a tricky balance between living life and managing pain. In “The Story,” I would like to cover some of those topics, both experienced and imagined through fiction.
Spoilers?: Minor [dealing with life]
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The hardest part of living with a disability of any sort of getting empathy from others. I don’t mean empathy as in overwhelming respect, but in the sort of basic human decency where others might help you if you need help, or leave you alone if you don’t. Originally, I had explored themes of disability as a sort of side topic in “The Story.” Now that I’m living with one, even temporarily, life is difficult.
About a year and a half ago now, I had imagined wanting to augment the written word portions of “The Story” with small, contained videogames. I had first considered the idea after seeing stories told in 48-hour game jam games, and thought, why not try? It’s been over a year since I last dug into that idea seriously, but it’s not a failure, because its seeds still were able to flower into reasonable storytelling ideas.
Spoilers?: Minor [developing one setting]
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I’m in a conundrum. My physicality has been so negatively afflicted by stress that my body cannot move in certain positions without hurting. I can’t do many of the stretches I could months ago. The physical therapy I’ve been prescribed is helping with my flexibility, which is helping, but it’s also hurting. One hour of stretches with a trained physical therapist can lead to days of immobility and pain. What to do, what to do…
I have above-average motivation, if the 1437 essays, short stories, and et cetera I’ve published here and counting are any proof of that, and yet, when I wake up in pain, my motivation drains completely. How can I get outside that sensation in order to reclaim some aspects of my day? I’ve conditioned myself to overcome most minor malaises, which only works for so long until those malaises manifest majorly. How can I move outside that?
Many people deal with chronic pain. Do the main characters of “The Story,” John and Trishna, have any long-term medical malaises? As I considered this question, briefly thinking through disparate scenes that might appear across the short stories, novel, or series of novels encapsulated within the greater whole of the Eville landscape where my first and other novels will reside, my casual answer is no. They will have some flirtations with pain, like everyone does…
Spoilers?: Minor [considering character-building concepts]
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