Over the past near-week, I’ve been struggling with a few different things from physical health to thinking too much about external validation, to most importantly, feeling unsure about how to proceed with my broadcasts. I’m going to start these sorts of tweets more often so I can kind of balance keeping myself hyped for new projects and completing old projects. I’m writing this on Monday. I’ll probably do another calendar tweet on Thursday for “beyond.”
Today’s broadcast might not have been a perfect example of it, but when I do art streams, like when I do other streams, I do want to focus on one of two areas: serious projects and light projects. For something like today, my idea was to make a poster and then do some art. Why not do both? It might have been easier to split up the broadcast into two different days, but, it’s fine.
It feels good completing unfinished projects toward eventual completion. For this project here, I had been debating leaving while drawing this 5-panel comic, then decided to leave for nearly a year. My return was nice. I won’t say for any particular arrogant reasons. It was nice having a warm welcome from most, friends, acquaintances, or others I had or had not met. What was nicer, though, was seeing my emotional intelligence detach from getting hooked.
I wasn’t feeling great today, perhaps because I’d been pushing myself to make as much progress as I could, but today I was struck with a particular idea: what if there were two variations on the Pride shirt design? One would be hyper-inclusive of any community and another would be more general. With that idea, I put together a 2-hour proof of concept and I’m happy with the results. I’ll have some backburner time, too.
It feels good to approach the completion of small and large projects. This shirt design turned into a much bigger project than I had assumed, but I did it right. That’s the important part, not doing it fast. Part of that was the many tangents I took – here, we talked about interviewing strategies to help out a friend, then talked about rules as it relates to various online communities. I like having this whiteboard now…
This broadcast was good and bad for multiple reasons. The bad was not out of any kind of technical quality or ineptitude, but rather, because I did the bad person thing and state a contrarian opinion, as I do sometimes. This can sometimes lead to anxiety-inducing situations wherein I hyperfocus on a negative event – sometimes positive – in lieu of doing the work or play that I had intended to do. Carpet bombs are necessary, sometimes.
Something was wrong with the typeface. It took me hours to figure out what exactly was wrong, and then when I realized it, I felt embarrassed. Eventually, I reframed that embarrassment to how it would be with writing, and I realized something: the typeface was my third draft, and it needed to be three drafts because I’m not much of a typeface designer. That said, I accidentally made the start of a new typeface today.
I’m trying a new experiment with my art livestreams. People broadcast playing variety videogame streams, where the broadcaster will play random videogames either by request or pre-selected, like, say, “playing 10 minutes or so to play videogames with a theme.” Why not do something similar with some art streams? When there isn’t a specific focus, why not take some time to screw around? This broadcast’s goal was cleaning up this shirt design, but why not meander?
I’d been talking with Eddie about drawing a concert shirt-styled shirt design. Yesterday, I put some superfluous energy into doing a rough draft pitch, and today, Eddie joined me for a call as I drew, he played a game, and we talked about everything from the latest Twitch news, to respect, to how he’s been since we last talked on the first Sobriety podcast. With another broadcast session like this, this shirt should look great!
I’ve been thinking about balance lately. I define balance as keeping multiple responsibilities, tasks, hobbies, and personas equalized. None should carelessly take priority over another in a priority hierarchy. After the broadcast I did yesterday, where I talked about some numbers, I rolled around this idea about how some broadcasters I’ve encountered are only after their numbers. So I said something. If this makes my broadcasting persona less popular, there are still myriad other personas.