What happens to media after we’ve meandered through their entirety? They still exist for us to re-meander through, but with the initial thrill of experiencing everything gone, what’s the point? For games like Viridi, the point is having a spot for daily active meditation – the act of watering plants can help remind us to water our own inner plants. For other media, when the videogame, album, or whatever is done, I’m onto the next thing.
I started playing ENDLESS WAR earnestly on April 10 2020 when I created a notepad document capturing random information that now surpasses 68.0 kilobytes or 69,632 bytes. It is a mishmash of my experiences, developer information, and assorted data that might prove useful if compiled someday. I’ve wanted to play through Zork earnestly for years, so after innocent meanderings, I remembered that notepad document, and a Zork one. Why don’t we create these sorts of notepad documents more often?
For the two main characters of “The Story,” John and Trishna, I wondered what would they name their plants? What diminutives would they call these little entities that Trishna developed a fondness for early into childhood then shared with John? After these questions popped up, I started to name plants in Viridi as they might name them. When you want to get into a character’s head, a useful exercise is naming something from their perspective.
I used to write more frequently about assessing the evolution of my writing processes. Whether that was the actual writing process itself or the production involved with the conception to publication of these essays. I haven’t done so lately, admittedly, because I haven’t given myself time to look back at where I’ve been. The tool I wish I would have added sooner was my writing calendar, “Betcal.” Here’s why and how I wrote this essay.
These plants only existed in Viridi because I told you they existed. They were digital flowers, so did they really exist at all? When we do things in life, why do we focus on whether they’ll be tangible going forward? Why not do things because we enjoy them, or because we know they’ll make others happy? If we have to assign our own meaning to reality and life is impermanent, why not build something impermanent?
There are certain memories I tend to have of events I’ve never experienced that take place in “The Story.” I’ll imagine scenes from days early on into John and Trishna’s relationship. I might be reminded of these scenes by anything. If I see a digital dresser in a videogame, I might imagine how Trishna’s dad and John built that dresser. These scenes fill my thoughts like memories of going to the city or the beach…
The first dose of ten of Prochlorperazine went down well. Doctor-Number-Seven prescribed this as a replacement to the Odansetron after mistakenly prescribing that, even after I explained that the intended anti-nausea medication gave me nausea. By comparison, I don’t feel nauseous one hour into my dosage. The headache pang that was knocking on the upper back left side of my head calmed down, but is that the medication, or because I’m writing this at home?
While engaging in my third-favorite-activity, exploring the world as I will at my own pace, [first-favorite-activity: writing, then reading,] when walking by flowers after returning to my Viridi digital flower gardens, I now “get” the idea of having digital – and real – flowers. I’m not yet ready for the responsibility of raising real flowers, but Viridi can teach that sense of daily responsibility, which taps into the same discipline mindset as working toward your dreams daily.
I don’t know how to rest. When I’m not at work, I’m at home working, and when I’m hanging out with friends, if the conversation gets boring, my mind will usually drift to what I want to accomplish next. My ambitions for 2020 have been more vicissitudinous than I would have preferred, so I have to adjust some of my short-term and possibly long-term plans to give myself more vacation time. What does that mean, though?