“Ten years ago, it must have been, I had a similar experience to this, Sammohini.” The two had just got coffee and were walking, discussing business. “This individual made me feel worthless constantly, belittled my work, and,” exhaling deeply, “mind if I have a cigarette?” “Sorry, I quit when I became pregnant, but if you smoke downwind, I guess it’d be fine, because you are the boss-” “Forget I asked. So, how can I help?”
Ten years ago, “The Story” was a nebulous creature, floating through the ether of my inner imagination. John “everSOL the Valiant” Ebersole and Trishna, then minus the N, had some representation, both in References and casually. These characters and their world were otherwise firmly in the back-burner on the edge of nowhere, waiting for their time to float to the surface, cooked, and ready to serve. We’re getting there, dear readers, “The Story” is cooking…
Ten years ago, rage and other emotions consumed me to the point of lashing out irrationally. Now, rage and other emotions still engulf me with their negative solace- that part hasn’t, and may never, completely go away for me, or any of us- it’s just I have more coping mechanisms. Maybe that’s the root of addictive behavior? Being unable to cope with the harshness of reality? We should then find subtle positive solaces within reality.
Ten years ago, I had no (career) ambitions, and was one quarter away from graduating college with a degree that didn’t interest me. I’ve since turned that around, professionally and personally. It’s tempting to think where I would be today if I could transplant my current life’s experiences to that younger me. What if I had studied literature instead? That story would be vastly different. Here’s Anthony’s career, told as a gripping thriller… or not?
What draws us to chaos? Boredom? The itch to do more, be more, and have more? Maybe we think constant effort over long periods of time could only be difficult. Maybe we yearn for the easy road to success? Unfortunately, the only way to truly achieve anything is to constantly work toward achievements. After being constantly athletic, I gave it up for overindulgence and hedonism, now, I’m applying constant effort to achieve good fitness again.
They say meeting your heroes is a terrible thing because of over-expectation. Stumbling through my words and thoughts, I gained artistic context and overcame shyness from meeting some of my “heroes.” How about John (center-right) and Trishna (center-left)? Do they even have celebrity figures they admire? Let’s take a psychological detour for this week’s update to “The Story” and consider how respect for authority, ambitions, and the drive to emulate, create, or procrastinate inspires idolization.
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Let’s say you’re out of work and that depression is starting to kick in. You wake up with that urgency to get freedom, along with that hopelessness of not having an easy way out, both “achieved” through the paying gig. Now let’s say you’ve worked at a gig for some time and that depression starts kicking in differently. You wake up with complacency because you’re drifting away from your real goals. Why does this happen?
There is no class, while getting your career degree, for handling unemployment, underemployment, or looking for work. That’s not important to them. It is almost guaranteed that throughout a contemporary career, you will be out of work at least once. That isn’t a failure on your part. You are not a bad person. Your skills still have value. You have value. Just be persistent, positive, proactive, preoccupied, and keep believing in yourself, now and always!
You sometimes might not realize how much the grime that’s accumulated in your system is affecting you until you start dislodging it. The stresses of life build up innocently. Too many days without getting enough sleep, not eating well, not drinking enough water, or not taking care of yourself can, like my rowing machine’s chain, generally lead to a build-up of gunk that probably slowed down my rowing stats for years… let’s compare next week?
“Let me go ahead and make that ticket for you, just a moment, I just need to finish filling out the notes, and you can be on your way. The ticket number will also be in your email, in a few minutes, with a hyperlink where you can track the status at any time. OK, that ticket number is-“
The alarm clock read 03:35 AM. Time to wake up and actually go to work.