[Novel 02] Lost Thinking Professionally

What’s the meaning of life? Well, isn’t that a tricky thought to consider, but, when we consider our thoughts on what life means to us, and when we compare our lives to others, particularly when we’re dealing with difficult things, sometimes we have some answers. Eventually writing “The Story,” where “Novel 01” and “Novel 02are but small fragments of that greater whole, is my “meaning” and it propels me through the darkness of failed American Dreamers.

Spoilers?: Minor [meandering through life]
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[Novel 02] Cracking Into Geography

A cool thing about livestreaming or watching livestreams on Twitch is all of the little pockets of communities you can find yourself in. What I do – building sets for “Novel 02,” then eventually “The Story,” as I was inspired by shortcomings in “Novel 01,” using Minecraft – seems to be wholly unique, but I’ve been finding people that are interested in hanging out. On this stream, I was joined in chat by one of my favorite streamers, cracky.

Spoilers?: Minor [chatting inspires changes]
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[The Story] Compartmentalized Good, Bad

The nice thing about building out set-pieces that will appear in “The Story,” as I’ve mentioned in other essays, is that it’s helped me externalize the sort of internal thoughts that wrack my brain. When I’m feeling bad, as I was earlier today, I can jump into Minecraft and do something productive. As easy as it is to complain about life or to do things to escape reality, addressing reality forthrightly helps for me often.

Spoilers?: Minor [exploring my mind]
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[Novel 02] Furnishing Zeal Rooms

After filling the [first] restroom of Zeal – the fourth-wall-breaking area of my Minecraft map that serves as part of a whole braindump area for my thoughts related to “The Story” – I immediately thought of changes. Having the restroom stalls “open” presented ethical problems to me. While I built and refined various rooms, I talked about how “Novel 01” taught me aspects of myself, from writing to this map, which should help me write “Novel 02” and more.

Spoilers?: Minor [refining set-piece logistics]
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[Novel 02] Discordance Among Plans

I did this recording offline because I needed to work through thoughts in my mind. My health is getting worse and it seems like no matter what I try, nothing seems to help. When I yell into the void for help, to help me write “The Story” or regain my health, it’s silence. I used what energy I had today to build on “Novel 01” and “Novel 02” ideas, and I thought the result looked like this:

Spoilers?: Minor [work going forward]
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[Novel 02] Bad Spine Work

What happens when I feel terrible because my spine is actively trying to destroy me, but my mind is still capable of thinking about things? Well, I can’t do anything much, but I can do some of the menial background tasks that can help me tell “The Story” easier. For my livestreaming background image, I included the book cover of “Novel 01” and did other things to better advertise “Novel 02” when I’m able to write it.

Spoilers?: Minor [planning through pain]
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[Novel 02] Cool Cats Chat

In this 20th recording of building set-pieces for “The Story,” I had a healthy audience in my livestreamed session. It was fun taking a variety of questions from people in the chat – I save the logs, and have debated how I want to publish them, because posting them along with the video might make sense, but I’m not sure. I referenced my writing “Novel 01” and explained how these set-pieces would help when I write “Novel 02.”

Spoilers?: Minor [finding my audience]
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[Novel 02] Leasing Fire Escape

Now that my health is becoming more consistently not terrible, I can think clearer, and I can use my time to plan for upcoming Minecraft livestreams. I’ve found a way to advertise myself and “The Story” in livestreaming without feeling shitty about forcing myself on others. They can stop in if they’re curious. This is a great platform for me to workshop ideas I learned writing “Novel 01” to write “Novel 02” or even some silly stories.

Spoilers?: Minor [Novella 1.5, logistical plans]
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[Novel 02] Cleaning Up Sewers

This was my first livestream of my Minecraft build series where I felt halfway normal. I’ve been using Minecraft as a storytelling tool for eventually telling “The Story” after learning that I don’t tell scene details well from writing “Novel 01.” Although I love and appreciate “Novel 01” for what it is, I can do better. “Novel 02” and beyond can help from the added perspective of thinking about sets at length and from passers-by of the livestream.

Spoilers?: Minor [deep-seated sewer thoughts]
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[Novel 02] EMAC-2 Halfway Done

When I say that I’m halfway done with Eville Medical Apartment Complex, Building 2, that is a bit misleading. The building’s exterior and proportions are halfway done. What remains is more of a sort of logistical meandry through my imagination as I envision it in “The Story.” I featured the apartment building from within Sammohini’s apartment briefly in Novel 01. Will it appear more in Novel 02? Well, if it’s halfway built, that’s halfway more complete than before.

Spoilers?: Minor [plan before necessary]
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