I found a large batch of Playstation 2 games that I’ve never played that I bought for next to nothing that I probably never would have played, even if I had ten lifetimes worth of time. Why would I keep these? What value do they serve? Are they self-confidence boosters in addition to being shelf warmers? It would be one thing if I were a gamer, but since I game so seldomly, I’ll sell them soon.
This applies to all media I own that I under-appreciate.
I used to meticulously catalog when I heard every album I’ve ever heard, and did so for the better part of ten years, until I moved into the apartment-mansion. My priorities shifted once these objects were abstracted into boxes rather than easily-accessible CDs and they quickly fell out of prominence in my life. I’ve thought casually about giving up the whole thing now, but maybe now I’ll just stop cataloging the months I’ve heard CDs in, and just behave more like a normal human being?
If so, that will free up the time to play other games.
By those, I don’t mean videogames that I actually enjoy, but the data entry elements that represented a majority of that ten-year period of time. It’s cool to look back on the statistics of what I heard and how that changed over the years, but I’m at a point now where my listening preferences have changed. I’d rather listen to the PCP than some album if I’m editing essays for publication. I don’t find as much value from listening to an album once or maybe five times that is overall unappealing to me, versus listening to these people that are working to improve their lives, and have a large network of people around them that I generally respect well enough.
Some of these PS2 games are worth playing.
When I go to store this collection, I’ll start with the games that I know I want to visit or revisit, and keep the choice games that might also be worth checking out. If I were a gamer, I’d keep them all, because they would help me practice areas of gameplay or it’s just fun to play. Since I’m a filthy casual that occasionally plays games, I should limit my physical and digital collections to only the games that I am actually excited to play.
This seems obvious, right?
The thing with getting into a hoarding mentality for a majority of that ten-year period is that you tend to forget things like that as you search out new items to add to your collections. What started off as a PS2 purchased from craigslist from someone, because it had Shadow of the Colossus and was cheap, turned into about fifty more games than I care about and a burden to carry with me, both daily when I think about how much space it has historically consumed, and overall in terms of how much space this collection will take up going forward.
Would I sell it all if I could digitize it into an always-available collection?
Possibly. I thought this same thing as I looked over my shelf-full of NES games. How many of these games will I play through to completion? How many will I even boot into? Let’s not dip our minds into depressive territory here. These are pragmatic questions. I have not started up my NES since the series I wrote about packing them up, where I cleaned a few and wrote about my thoughts. Since then, I have led a fulfilled, exciting life, and continue to do so. I still enjoy these games, but many of them, when or if I return to them, can be emulated legally or otherwise.
I don’t need their physical cartridges filling up my life.
I don’t need to play the game of owner or curator of anything anymore. I’ll own it if I want it and I won’t when I don’t. There doesn’t need to be as much formality when it comes to this ownership. I’m fine with keeping a list of the book I want to read and have read, since that can be helpful in avoiding buying duplicates, but it doesn’t need to weigh me down as much as my music or videogame collections have, even if they’re essentially the same thing.
I think the difference now is my attitude toward books versus the other media.
I am not going for a completionist set of “the classics” or anything other than perhaps La Comédie humaine, just because I like the concept, and even that is at a casual pace. I have to focus first, before reading those at length, on clearing out the excess data entry that might have interested me in my early 20s, but now that I’m quickly approaching my mid 30s are becoming excessive.
I will stop worrying about the nuances of these collections.
If I own a duplicate of something, I can sell off the version I don’t want, and it’s not this life-ending ordeal it might have been in my hoarding heights. Sure, I might not gain a profit on certain transactions, which might make me feel bad, but I should rather than look at historical purchases, I should look at current and future gains. If I can downsize all of my excess stuff out of my second bedroom, I can move somewhere that will save me money each month, not just so I can afford more media, but I can afford to try out more new things, decide I’m not interested, and move on. I may have began collecting on the cheap because it was freely available, but I don’t need to retain that thought process. I can evolve out of the need to apply those data entry hobbies to every hobby of mine. I can just let the analysis go and just have fun. Besides, I can analyse myself or others in writing.
Maybe that was my actual search in data entry originally?
|Sources: My personal experiences.|
|Inspirations: It’s always good to ask yourself “why” on certain concepts. Why do I want to catalog all these CDs? Why don’t I just sell or donate the excess? I got into RYM and data entry in my final quarter before graduating college when I saw the Enter The Wu-Tang (36 Chambers) by the Wu-Tang Clan at the library in 2008 and wanted to catalog my collection. That’s taken me on a journey through media that’s led me here. I can still engage with media even if I’m less meticulous about tracking when I heard or watched or whatever’d anything…|
|Related: Other Downsizing Zeal essays.|
|Picture: This was more of an exploration of a general idea than something specific, so a general picture is fine.|
|Written On: 2020 March 15 [From 1:23am to 1:47am. Gdocs.]|
|Last Edited: 2020 April 01 [Adapted from Gdoc, so, second draft; final draft for the Internet.]|