[Downsizing Zeal] Making Some Progress

As much as I am able, I should work toward making progress in downsizing the items I don’t want anymore in the room I call my storage room. Every month that I pay rent on the two-bedroom apartment I call “the apartment mansion” is money I’m downsizing needlessly. Sure, this place is nice, but if I’m using a majority of it to store objects, I would prefer those objects to be things I care about.

Today’s goal was clearing off the shelf that will be a sorting area.

I’m still experiencing significant pain, even now, even after taking a 10-milligram pill of Oxycodone that was only supposed to be used for my spine surgery rather than to merely exist now, apparently, but some movement can be helpful, I suppose. When the pain is too severe, that’s when I go lie down to try to wade out the pain. When it’s not, then I can continue to try to pick up the pieces of my life, and, by extension, pick up the pieces around the storage room that I don’t want.

The goal should be not shuffling things from one area to another.

I learned a toxic lesson when I was a furniture mover. I was once sweeping the warehouse when I was disciplined because the broom appeared empty. That manager had assumed I wasn’t sweeping. The toxicity is subtle, but the implication is that I should have always been holding something. Returning to the storage room, if I move boxes from one shelf to another, that makes progress, right? Rather than sucking up the discipline as I had done, I could have said what had happened – that I actually had swept all of the dirt into a pile to throw it away.

So too, objects I don’t want should go away, rather than stick around.

The problems are deciding what to keep and where to keep them.

This shelf had four main piles. From left to right, they were a box of checkers, a network device, books with empty folders, and CD-jewel-case-based PC games. I’m not interested in checkers, so these should get donated. The network device might have some usefulness, so this should go with my network junk – to downsize when that time occurs. I want to keep all of these books, so they went into my book pile to later put away. The folders went into a pile of other paperwork I can potentially use. I want to keep all of these PC games, at least for now.

When faced with an influx of new items, that’s the time to reassess our collections.

A majority of my PC game collection is in the corner of the storage room. That’s probably where these games should have gone, and so, I found a box that had big-box PC games and a nearby box of jewel-case-based videogames. I put all of these games in these two boxes, which meant some sacrifices. At the height of my hoarding tendencies, I wanted to keep everything, but now that I’m over two years removed from that mindset, I am more accepting of the notion that I don’t want to keep everything.

Pain does a certain thing as well to one’s mind regarding materialism.

Dealing with severe chronic pain is helping me with my downsizing efforts because it helps me ask questions of myself. Here, the question becomes: Do I have the energy to want to try to play this game? Some of these games require specific hardware. Others might require troubleshooting to play. Sure, once I figure out one, I could figure out others, but how much of this do I want to deal with long-term? There is something to be said for digital games being locked away behind distributors that could remove them from the marketplace or even deactivate your account, so there is some necessity toward physical ownership, but, that should be for the games I care most about, rather than random games.

I removed all of those random ‘don’t care about’ games from my collection.

I donated a batch of similar games earlier this year and have three piles to donate now.

Before I donated those earlier games, and before I donate these games, I will check their prices to see if I happen to be sitting on any games worth selling, along with doing a final “goodbye” to see if these objects are worth keeping or not. If they are, I can always return them to the PC games collection, but if not, then it’s not saying goodbye forever to this game. It’s not like I am burning it from existence and wiping it clean from history. I am donating an object. If that donated object is immediately thrown away – assuming I didn’t donate trash, then that wasted my time and their efforts, sure, but it’s also something beyond my control.

Let’s say I donate these games and other things I removed from the storage room.

That frees up more space that I can then use to either rearrange or store other things. The more I assess things like my PC game collection or anything else I write about, the more I come to terms with the bigger questions. I have a LaserDisc collection. If I had a proper entertaining area, would I ever want to meander through that collection? I’m currently leaning closer to no, whereas two years ago when I packed it up, and about 18 months when I moved it into the storage room initially, I fervently wanted to keep it.

Being decisive with some objects helps us become decisive with others.

Even if I go into the storage room a few times a week when my spine doesn’t feel like it wants to self-destruct, or even when it does, that’s more time I spent considering what I want to keep versus not. There are still a suffocating amount of boxes I need to sort through in the storage room.

I can confidently say I’m making some progress.

Endtable
Quotes: None.
Sources: My personal [and I suppose professional] experiences.
Inspirations: The professional anecdote was that even if I’m doing work, I should always try to shuffle things around to make it appear like I’m doing work, because sometimes doing work doesn’t look like work. I’ve learned this repeatedly throughout my career. It’s the notion of not sending out all of your company emails right as you arrive into work in the morning, but spread them out throughout the day. Applied to downsizing, that might be appearing to do downsizing things, but not actually doing them. Here, it’s a matter of clearing out space, rather than just condensing space so more things are put into tighter areas.
Related: Other Downsizing Zeal essays.
Photo: Paper, pen, and tape can help label the things you’ve worked on. I’d write, for example, “PC Games” on one line, “2020 Oct” on the second line, and tape it to the bottom left corner. I might change the color from pink to yellow so I can try to assess these boxes whenever possible.
Written On: 2020 October 31 [3:210pm to 3:5555555pm]
Last Edited: 2020 October 31 [First draft; final draft for the Internet.]
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