Three days after I donated enough donations to fill my trunk, I couldn’t remember what I donated as I was filling out my tax information, and in some small way, I think that’s great. My attachment to the old gloves and perhaps remaining school supplies was so minimal that my memory had wiped clean their existence from my former possession. Once I would have mourned the loss of stuff, now I enjoy the free space.
Physical and mental free space.
Not only have I been able to more fully realize my intentions with the apartment-mansion’s space through clearing the worst clutter physically but also mentally! By that, I mean I have a way of processing my possessions to see if I still care about them, so I’m left only with the items that make me feel great, which leads into the mental side:
I won’t have to worry about those gloves anymore.
Though bought with best intentions, they were gloves I’d never wear again, and when I tried them on to see if I might ever wear them, they didn’t fit well. Same with the shirts that popped into my memory as I wrote that last sentence, inspired by the statement ‘I’ll never wear these again,’ they’re gone and I don’t miss them a bit.
Is it callous to think so objectively about objects?
Should I care more about my clutter? I think that would put me in the wrong direction. Instead, if I put everything that still has some life into donation bags/boxes, then I can focus on the items that invigorate me! Isn’t that preferable? Why should I allow things that don’t impress me to weigh me down? Maybe that lack of enthusiasm for the norm and below average might rub people the wrong way, but I’m realizing that focus helps me accomplish more.
I’m excited about my future now!
The first ebook is ahead of schedule; I need to copy all my favorites into a single document, edit, then format. Keyboard Kommander is going well; we have a great team of people that have a true passion for making the best game we can. I have plenty of negatives constantly surrounding me, but if I focus on the positives while addressing the negatives without letting them bother me, I can and will succeed.
Can clutter cause chaotic consciousness?
A space without stuff is easy to assess: There are sharp lines and any incongruities are minimal. With clutter, even subconsciously, you’re looking at many of the minor details to assess what it is, whether it’s a threat, burden, or what might hold your attention for a few seconds. After I took this shot, I realized, ‘wow, that old bathroom mat sure looks ugly. I don’t want it anymore.’
I could buy a better one later.
When we separate ourselves from our clutter, we can more neutrally assess it. If we ever want anything back, buy another one, or write about it!
Otherwise, I left the tax document sparse.
|Sources: My personal experiences.|
|Inspirations: Assessing where I am in life now, in terms of my relationship to materialism. If the object helps me along, great, if not, I am not as attached, perhaps because of the 10-day move, perhaps because I know more moves will come, or perhaps because I’ve realized that I want to do more writing in life as opposed to looking at what I want to keep or not all day.|
|Related: Other Downsizing Zeal essays.|
|Photo: Bath rug that landed at the front door. Now it’s in the downsizing rack, pending review before donation.|
|Written On: April 3rd [25 minutes]|
|Last Edited: Final draft; final draft for the Internet.|