[Moving Zeal] Breaks and Lunches

I haven’t written about “The Story” lately, so, is the project dropped? Far from it! Just because most of my time is spent sorting through the remainder of my possessions that haven’t been boxed up yet doesn’t mean scenes won’t pop up. When I’m taking a break, I might imagine Trishna and Pollyanna posing for a cute holiday photo, or when I’m eating lunch, I might wonder how John would eat or shave his face…

I packed up the lightbox today.

Many days recently have been like this:

  1. Wake up either at the alarm and ready to go, or late, having slept in.
  2. Look over my task list.
  3. Work through the entire day.
  4. Maybe take a break.
  5. Wrap up the day with a list of things I’d like to do the next day.

I’ve been making incredible progress, if I may say so myself, but I’ve heard concerns over spending too much time on this moving-out project, and I’ve skipped a few concerts and hang-outs with friends to make this happen. This might seem like a terrible thing to say, but I’m not really one for work/life balance. If there’s a project I need to tend to, I tend to put my all into it, but even now, I’ve been learning to pace myself more.

That includes taking breaks and lunches.

Professionally, it’s easy, because I’m only there for 40 hours a week. I give my managers and middle managers a good 40 hours of work. My stints of working and not-working haven’t been friction over that. It’s just I’ve been doing part-time contracts over the past few years as I figure out where I want to work and what I want to do with my life. My last contract ended shortly before my move-out ramped up, so it’s worked out well, but I’ll still need to get a job before I can move anywhere. It’s a difficult balancing act because as soon as I start working, I won’t have the time to pack, but I’ll need a few weeks worth of paychecks before I can move onto my next place.

So I’ve almost been too much on overdrive lately.

By the time this publishes, everything should be all squared away, so it’ll be all about this intermediary five weeks or so: if I do nothing, then I’ll be significantly behind schedule. If I get it all squared away, hopefully without injuring myself or burning out, I’ll be in great shape. If the last month is a good example of the work I’ve been able to do, I should be fine, but this also means not assuming that I’ll be clear until I’m clear.

Once I move, I’ll get back to writing fiction.

I don’t think I’ll set up my lightbox again immediately, but I’ll at least write stories about Jane and Sammohini. That’ll be nice. This move has set back production on writing “The Story” a few months, but I haven’t stopped brainstorming.

I’ve just taken a physical break on writing.

Quotes: None.
Sources: My personal experiences.
Inspirations: After taking down the LED strip lighting from the lightbox and putting it and the sticky residue on the back of the lighting on my temporary writing desk, I arranged it for a photograph.
Related: Other Moving Zeal essays.
Photo: Took a few tries to stage well.
Written On: January 4th [20 minutes]
Last Edited: First draft; final draft.
My big goal is writing. My most important goal is writing "The Story." All other goals should work toward that central goal. My proudest moment is the most recent time I overcame some fear, which should have been today. I'm a better zombie than I was yesterday. I'm not better than you and you're not better than me. Let's strive to be better every day.